my second post today.. i just woke up from my nap.. and i kept thinkin abt that thing which i fear will happen at the end of this yr.. my dad was talkin abt some issues..and while he was talkin,i started to think abt THAT stuffs, and tears started to well up in my eyes..but i did not show it i wont talk abt it cuz i don want to spurt nonsense.. but my dad told me today that he does not want to interfere abt my studies and all..he has a lort of things to worry..i still rmb last week..after i got off the com,he told me that he has stopped 'caring' abt my studies and all...and he said something..but i dono if its accidentally..cuz he is veri secretive..he only cares abt other people..not himself.. anyway,i dono wads wrong with me..but its becuz of this sixth sense,instinct and the gut feelin that i have dat make me think alort of negative things which i noe im not supposed to think about..buts so scary..like in drama serials and all..and I NOE THAT DRAMA SERIALS AND REALITY IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT.. BUT MAY I ASK..IF ITS DIFFERENT,WHY DO PEEPS CREATE THEM?WHY THEY LET PEEPS WATCH IT?ITS OBVIOUS RITEX?? so its obviously that it happens in true life..another example is,in shows we sometimes see peopls clumsily falling down in live shows and in front of alort of people..but we never expected it to happen ritex??it happened on the MS UNIVERSE2007 ritex??? SO DON TRY TO BE A SMART ALEC TO SAY THAT TV SERIALS ARE DIFFERENT FROM REALITY..DONT U NOE DAT WE HAVE TO BE PREPARED FOR AYTHING ESP IN THE FUTURE?? sorri peeps..but i just cant stand other peeps view that its not true..cuz it can happen..all these imaginations of mine are just comin into me every now and then.. I DON WANT IT TO HAPPEN...BUT SOMETIMES GOD IS JUST UNFAIR..REALLY!!! I HAD A DREAM SIMILAR..BUT ITS JUST WEIRD..I JUST DON WANT IT TO HAPPEN TO MY FAMILY..
