im sorri but im just totally pissed..pardon for this post.. FRI: everything was fine till it was in the aftn but did not want to show or ruin everyone's mood so came home early to 'relax' myself and think over wad happened THIS PARTICULAR PERSON(lets call this person,z,so in short PZ) JUST SHOWED PERSONAL TRUE COLOURS PZ said something which made me think..IF i had not chosen chinese as my second language but malay which my parents took,will i be with the peeps im with now??(pls don get me wrong) then i looked opposite me..coincidentally,people of the same kind,same as me..my mind was then totally in a swirl..keep thinkin abt alort of things which cld hav happened TO PZ,FOR BLOODY GOD SAKE,WE ARE NOT DEAF OR LIKE MANY METRES AWAY THAT U NEED TO SHOUT/TALK LOUDLY..I THINK I WLD GO DEAF IF UR AROUND ME so many times and u don hear yrslf how LOUD yr voice is yr frens don like u ard(or mayb they now like u ard,i donoe)YOU JUST BLABBER THINGS OUT OF YOUR MOUTH WITHOUT THINKIN OF WHETHER ITS INSULTING/HURTING OR WAD..dono whether yr frens realised abt it if wad u said was a joke,u wld hav said "no la!jkjk OR (smile) sorri larhx" like wad others wld do IM PRETTY 100% SURE/CLEAR OF WAD U SAID AND WAD I HEARD..ITS NOT AS THOUGH U WERE SO FAR AND THE PLACE WAS NOT NOISY EITHER MOST IMPTLY,U HAD NO EXPRESSION(like bo chap bo chap)AT ALL WHEN U SAID IT mayb peeps ard you did not hear clearly wad u said or they just hrd it but thought i did not hear it..wadeva i dono anyway,i wont say wad PZ said and neither will i say if u ask me about it it doesnt bother if i may have dropped hints abt who this person is you see,im not a person who gets angry with a person so long (ji chou) but if u cross my limits,u will be sorry..DAMN BLOODY SORRY I TELL YOU in any case,i will just keep wad PZ said inside in me.. when i hrd it,i did not hav much reaction to it..but went home and u noe..got quite emotional but bcuz my dad came home early..he kept on talkin crap makin me laugh so i was ok already..almost forgot it happened IM FINE!!!ahah feels good after i VENTED it here..
