|
Friday, December 12, 2008
its the last weeks of 2008..christmas is just ard the corner 2wks ago i lost my (dad's side)grandma's brother..n on tue i lost my (mum's side)grandfather's sister i dono why we hav to go through this again!its part n parcel of life,yes i noe that,but its just not ritex,esp at the wrong time,esp it so sudden..sometimes god is so cruel(cuz he wants to test ppl) and this yr,i hav lost total of 4-5relatives..it just seems so unfair to our family and the scariest or strangest thing is,previously,i lost 2 relatives early this yr was just within 4days.. i still rmb i wanted to watch somethg as i had my lunch during my o's preparation period so everyday wld look for vcd/dvd(parents unaware)to allow me to relax(tv cable taken out =cnt watch tv shows at all)and so one very fine day,i took out my grandparents 50th anniversary vcd..and there i saw my aunt her ususal self.. no doubt,she looked so hipped and lively,always wit a smile,SHE LOVED TO JOKE,MAKIN THOSE ARD HER SMILE & LAUGH WIT HER,talkin like no tmrw,but she was a diebetic patient for few yrs only and cld not control her intake on sweet stuffs my grandma's a diebetic patient for 20-30plus yrs but she controls her sweet intakes n keeps tellin her to control her's too..everyone tried tellin my aunt to control but she just was the person who loved to enjoy her life to the fullest..always made sure she was dressed up very well before steppin out of the hse howeva,just last yr,she was hospitalised all of a sudden as i watched the vcd,it just hit me really bad,makin me realise HOW DIFFERENT SHE LOOKED NOW & THEN.. still rmb i went to the hospital to see her aft her opts but did not manage to see her in her home,which was where she last was..she cld not recognise people except her son when i saw her the first time in the hospital,that was when i realised how powerful a sickness can do to a person FULLY..u cnt recognise her at all..n i just cldnt hold my emotions.. saw her the last time today..for the past over 10 long months,today she looked so beautiful aft wad she has been through..she cried,suffered so much but fought so bravely and hard despite her illness,still asusual jokin wit people she saw.. she is foreva in our memories,in our prayers aft everythg,suddenly there was butterfly comin in,flutterin into where everyone was gathered..it was so strange seein it..i n sasha exchanged glances n we were thinkin of the same thg..yup she was ard,watchin us & bcomin our guardian angel we will miss you esp yr smile & jokes,till we meet again goodnitex & may jesus bless and be with you :) Labels: YOUR AMAZIN GRACE
|
