(THIS WILL REALLY REALLY BE A LONG POST)...im sorri release of O's was today..the past days i have been occupied wit diff dramas online..to make sure im not thinkin abt my results(HOW EVER DID THOSE CAMBRIDGE MARKERS MARK SO FAST??EXACTLY 2MONTHS!!SOMEMORE WIT THOUSANDS OF PPRS TO CORRECT DURIN WINTER TIME??THEY ARE UNBELIEVABLE!!) my sleepin hrs hav been BADLY affected lately!!AND I MEAN SERIOUSLY AFFECTED~HAD SO MANY SCARY DREAMS OF O's!!TODAY MORN WAS THE WORST(so sensitive this person) i dreamt that i failed my eng(E8) and the rest except my chinese n math!!omg aft that i cldnt not sleep..but eventually went to sleep again and by 8plus i was up!really cld not force to sleep cuz i really kept gettin up continuosly(sounds like some bad sleepin disorder or something) tried to watch the 66th golden globe awards but wasnt in any mood..then started watchin my chinese shows(it worked though..i was entertained wit hilarious moments but soon rmb my results n just sulked/no mood/stoned) and then i hrd the dogs barkin!!my god i tot the postman came but it was only 12plus,too early!! so listened to my songs to keep me 'high'..no mood for lunch n just stared at the 4walls in my room~ it was 1.40pm and the dogs started barkin n i was sure this time its him & it was!! ran downstairs as though i was runnin a race(the staircase must hav shooked badly larhx!haha)and i checked through the letters DON HAV!!then checked it one by one carefully n THERE IT WAS..MOMENT OF TRUTH my heart kept beatin so fast!!omg so scary n i was trembling in fear wit my eyes really wet all of a sudden.. for once i slowly tore it open(i always like to rip envelopes cuz im a impatient person)..opened it & started from the bottom(places eligible to go)and slowly went up n finally decided to just flip open and my eyes just went black for 10s!!i started to cry,gettin myself lookin very ugly(thankgoodness i was indoor n noone was ard) i only knew i passed all my subs but did not noe which grade for which sub!saw my L4 score and i was just cryin even more badly first time ever i rang my parents up & cried over the phone SO BLOODY BADLY(my maid upstairs was scared thinkin somethg bad must hav happened that she did not dare to ask me why~LOL damn hilarious)!!last yr i held it n did not show it infront of them so they werent expectin me to cry THIS bad~hahaha my dad was in e middle of a meetin & just ans my call!lol my mum tot i did worst cuz i cried over the phone first time,really horribly that she was so sad,makin her hav her pressure shootin up high temp!!haha(thats wad she told me) yeah they were happie,elated,shocked,stunned,overjoyed!wadeva u name it AND I MUST SAY,NEVER NOT TRUST YR PARENTS ADVICE!THEY CAN BE RIGHT its bcuz of my mum that i had to retake my eng(B3 originally)!!and I NV EVER DREAMT of gettin an A2 for it..up till now i hav no idea how that happened cuz i(gotta be honest)practically PAID LEAST ATTENTION TO IT as i was satisfied wit my old grade..and my aural i said a lil chinese all of a sudden without realisin cuz i seriously dono how to descibe this particular game(embarrassin i tell you,mixin chin & eng at e same time~weirdo)..my compo was so long,not gettin to the point till the last 2 paragraphs of the end!!and it was like SO LONG!! no doubt,u can tell im really longwinded my chinese was a big relieve for me!cuz i was a dumb block not to take it in May n so left wit 1 chance in Nov & came finally aft so long wit a B3 wit my aural first time havin a merit!!i tot i wld screw aural havin said eng cuz i dono how to describe in chinese..and i kept sayin er,er,er!!takin my own sweet time to think somemore i screwed my math at the last min cuz of the stoooopid curvy curvy graph for first time n threw away 20mins plus n results oso same as last yr!that was really disappointin plus wit the moderation(im guessin they had it)..oh well~ my science was a 'new'..cuz i changed from pure to comb so it was really a relieve and lesser burden to not rmb so many facts(nv was i a science person since pri sch)!!was overjoyed wit my B3 cuz i NEVER got a B except for only once in my EOY exams in Pri5 for my science since i first took it in pri sch(no joke)..always failin like no tmrw except sometimes,gettin a C(despite studyin hard,sometimes oso can fail!)~i hav no affiliations wit science at all comb humans can forget abt it!biggest letdown cuz of ss(damn ss i tell you,)!!the essay was crazy for me..i was so indecisive of choosin which Q cuz i went through them b4 comin but its either i can rmb for one part of the Q or another Q of the essay(wasted precious time again)!!i changed from chinese lit to eng lit cuz it was really difficult somemore doin it by myself so did not want to take the risk!thank goodness my lit pushed my grade and had C6~wadeva!!nv want to see ss bks ever again..will only make my blood boil!!!! LASTLY,THE OVERALL WINNER OR SHALL I SAY SURPRISE FOR ME/MY PARENTS!! E-C-O-N-O-M-I-C-S!!last yr i had only C6 and all the time in sch my econs was NEVER beyond above a C!!im not lyin/bluffin/makin up stories..dreamt of it but nv tot cld achieve it B3 just made me smile/grin so widely from my left to right!AND AGAIN i tot i flunked it cuz ppr2 qtns dono if wad i wrote were relevant,BUT ppr1 was like hell!all the 4 possibilites were so close that i just kept tikamin tikamin/crackin my brains!hahaha cnt imagine doin that again~prob will faintor go bonkers now starin at the result slip,somehow i just feel the grades arent mine and that by tmrw it wld change into an undesirable grade(some weird imagination i hav all of a sudden~just like winnin lottery,thinkin the money doesnt belong to you,like u stole it or something OR like the cinderella story)!!im just really thankfull for so many thgs..i dono how to say i guess this is wad my mum's sayin of givin yr 100% & sacrificing for a while!!yeah sacrificed so much(lol esp my tv)but this was wad i wanted..i always whinned & complained when it came to studyin econs cuz it was so 'boring yet interestin'!im contradictin but yeah thats how it was to me..cuz im not a study person(except for some subs)..IM A VERY PICKY PIG!!ahaha my parents thought i cld hav done better for ss & math!i agree BUT im not gona dwell much~ lookin at my results,i really hav a kind of satisfaction whereby i made my parents happie!!im just speechless but left wit tears to 'speak/tell' seein my parents smile n ntg else!after all that has happened,im glad i did wad i did!really~just so harpae wit myself just lookin at the paper can make me cry cuz i cnt believe myself overall..who cares if i had a 1 mark extra,unable to go jc!don bother,as long i can go to my poly cse im happie.. now wad i want to do is to sleep peacefully,wit no prob/disturbin dreams scarin the hell out of me!! nitety nitex peeps!!
