for now, i really wished i wasnt born at all:( why am i so dumb, gullible & maybe even useless!?? I think i give people problems and I create more problems for people.. in other words, 越帮越忙 also, I believe in people too easily.. but my sixth sense do play a part too!! i bet even 6/7 year old kids are even more smarter than me the past few days just isnt going well for me at all... i wish im under some spell/curse, hoping this curse/spell would be broken and never to be with me again!! BUT obviously, im living in the real world and nothing will be 100% perfect & smooth sailing in life i feel that people should not have high expectations from me or at least want something from me in return cuz i know i will disappoint them alot. And i swear to god, if anything happens from now till the end of our internship here, i will never ever ever forgive myself. it will forever haunt me if theres a need for me to sacrifice anything, i will definitely do it. no matter what cost it takes. I'd rather do it cuz then i wld feel less guilty about it :'(
