its just minutes after 00:00 & i dont feel the excitement that its my birthday every year, around 23:55 on 18th september, i always switch on my favourite lights & wait for the the next 5 minutes to pass by for me to welcome 19th september (it sounds like some fairytale princessy thing.. but its not) and when it hits 00:00, i feel the butterflies in my tummy and i feel like a small kid but this year, it just didnt make me feel that way at all and i know there are 2 reasons as to why i felt like that. its just really negative feelings & thoughts :/
