Its 1 plus in the morning.... and i cant sleep at all i was just clearing my stuff on my macbook few hours ago and i came across certain things and my heart just stopped beating for a few seconds as i tried to catch hold of my breath i got reminded of the past and everything just came rushing into my head i read and saw everything and tears just rolled down uncontrollably and before i knew, my keypad and shirt were all soaking wet i kept laughing/smiling to myself at your expression of how you would look like when you spoke/type of every word. yes every word. every single word no doubt & as gross as it sounds.. i miss you alot! crazy as it sounds but yes, thats how much you mean to me. dont ask me why bcuz its something i cant explain easily, go figure it out yourself i miss the past so much that its one of the things i would trade for if i had the chance to go back in time i wanna go back to that period how we were, where everything was just like "rainbows & unicorns" (i have no idea what words to make it nicer but bare with me for this cheesy yet inappropriate words, but you get what i mean) but now, everything is just happening to fast.. just too fast to absorb that it makes growing up suckier each day its a lie that I know i can do much better without you! its a lie that I know my heart is much strong for this! its a lie that I know i wished i never met you! though i really hate the fact of how things have turned out, i know that i should have expected all of what had already happened bcuz thats what i felt was best for everyone! call me mean, self-fish, bad, horrible, beetch and the list goes on etc... but you have to understand where I am coming from! Looking at the situation, nothing cld have happened.. and will NEVER EVER happen in the future.. End of story.. full stop
