spent a really goood & memorable christmas this year with my cousins, aunt & grandma :) ~ simple home cooked dinner prepared by aunt with everyone talking & eating at the table ~ watched Jack Neo's ghost comedy movies while eating B&J ice-cream ~ played monopoly while watching Micheal Buble Christmas special ~ New girl marathon with my cousin ~ finished HIMYM episodes from where i left
im really glad i went & stayed over with them! had alot thinking and going through my mind when i was with them its really these small things that make me feel so homely/happy... idk how to explain this not that i dont feel homely at my own home in jurong with my parents, but i just wished i had siblings i think if i did, i swear i wld be the happiest person cuz i wld feel 100% complete (and no im not joking when im saying this cuz this is just whats inside me that i hardly talk about) perhaps you guys wld be wondering why i am saying such things almost all of my friends and both sides of my cousins have siblings and when i see them so close/doing stuffs/fighting with them etc, i admit i get kinda jealous and upset yeah i got friends and cousins and even more interestingly, my parents cuz sometimes my parents act like small kids too which is hilarious but its just not the same with having your own "direct blood relations of young/old replica's of crystal" ok weird description but you get what i mean with that~ LOLLOLOLOL my aunt was asking my 3 cousins & I who wld be doing what after dinner & all of us just said what we wanted to do.. it was hilarious cuz we just said whatever was left from the previous person! ok im weird but i really liked that feeling.. feels so warm and all! ok whatever im retarded but heck its like what u see in those movies and all, but yeah it surprisingly happened to me in real life i like it if my house is noisy... kids making noise or whatsoever! yes i love it when i have guests over at my own home! even when my maternal grandparents used to come and stay with us, it was still a lil noisy all but it all comes down to.. "Life isnt perfect & never what we always expect it to be" So its alright with me being sibling-less I have been living it for the past 20 years of my life so it aint a diff/prob to me anymore cuz im so used to it and im just tired of wishing for things to happen if it does, then its definitely a good thing for me Nevertheless, im very much thankful for my parents and everything they have given to me and also for my relatives & friends still happy & satisfied with my 'fake siblings'~ lol esp my parents hahahhaha sometimes i imagine small kids esp boys as my siblings getting bullied by my dad.. mum wld be the one asking dad to stop but she wld be the nice one... and as for me?? either i wld not care being the coool elder sis or i wld be joining in the fun with dad~ sounds like a perfect thing but ok that dreamy bubble will burst once i wake up from it meh! i shld stop thinking of this.. depressing much, kns shall sleep early cuz of grp meeting tmrw/later
