my everything

2012-01-24T17:57:00.000+08:00

CNY day 2...and im not feeling it at all
idk whats wrong with me but i think everything has changed.. festivity feeling isnt around at all
that aside, i can say it has been 2 productive days, mostly spent at home doing work, slacking & resting as well!
already in the holiday mood but its back to school tomorrow! haiz this is bad D:
screw this! im gona nap now!!!

2012-01-22T22:43:00.001+08:00

first post for 2012 after sucha long time
kept thinking that i shld blog but i ended up being lazy as usual
so anywayssssss
i've beeen busy with school and school and nothing else!
ohhh wait, i just rmb!!!! 21st BIRTHDAY PARTIES!!!! HAHAHAHHAAH
i've been attending them and it makes me all the more not want September to come for mine!!! but overall, the meet-up with friends after a long long time just makes it enjoyable!
more excitement to only come when exams are over!
school is gona end non-officially in less than 2 weeks time!
EXACTLY 1 more month till school officially ends!
cant believe its been 3 freaking long years in NP... i feel much older and somehow still lost in what I wanna do later in life!
its gona be CNY in few hours time.. long weekend tooo, but i have a feeling im gona rest more than start on work! but im worrying 24/7
tbh, im more worried for my part of the job bcuz its gona be one of the grading criteria.. and if it aint good, my grades are gona go down the hill just easily with the snap of the finger! im not exaggerating but stating the fact
cant stop thinking about our 2 upcoming events for our capstone project this week & next week!
its gona be crazy & hell loads of madness coming in for the 2 weeks cuz assignments are all due at the same time.. GREAT JOB (Y) !@£$%^&*
trying to be strong and positive etc but i cant... really bad at this though almost more than half the time i tell/encourage people around me to be this when they are in similar kind of situation.. :/
just crossing fingers about everything thats gona happen!
alright, gona head back to work & be on google-doc chat with the rest! lol

2011-12-31T23:40:00.001+08:00

wellwellwell, its again THAT time of the year!! mins till 2012 begins
Another year had gone by and it has been yet another bumpy road filled with so many things that happened
I just looked back on what i did in 2010... cldnt stop laughing at some of it cuz it brought back memories and theres some linkage between 2010 & 2011
I was thinking of using picts but im lazy to find them so i shall stick to writing since I am always so long winded!! lool

now lets recap 2011

It marked the last & final new year as a whole family
Stepped down from FMSA SMT:/
Lost my grandfather days before i left for Shanghai :'(
First time to be away from parents & living independently without them for 6 months
First time living with 5 other people as my 2nd family in Shanghai
Got to meet & take picts with some of my favourite Singaporean actresses & actors in Singapore Day 2011 in Shanghai
First ever visit to a theme park & riding on a roller coaster
Virgin clubbing experience in Shanghai
First time that i went for a beach party in Shanghai
Went to Beijing's Tian An Men square, Olympic Birdnest Stadium & climbed part of The Great Wall of China (Y) felt like a dream, i swear :)
Traveled to Qingdao, Zhouzhuang, Suzhou & Hangzhou
Ate one of the most bizarre food in Beijing for the first time in my life.. Fried Scorpion D: lol
First time experiencing so many interesting things in Shanghai, which wont be mentioned but kept a secret!! haha
Had hair extensions for the first time since i cldnt dye my hair in China
Met Xia Xue for the first time & took a pict with her
First time to achieve a freaking 4.0 for my GPA.. miracle :')
Had the most interesting & unique birthday present from the FMSA peeps
Improved my baking of cookies including eggless ones
Lost my uncle... but i gained someone in that process
Seabreeeeeeze, lol
Fun FMSU camp
First Blue-bird outing after a long long time
Best Scarefest FMS 2011
First ever APR class party with the other class
Highlighted my hair for the first time
Stepped down from KCC Committee with an unforgettable AGM
Heard from the first grandchild in mum's side of the family.. My cousin wants to get married in 2012 & have kids!!! best thing to hear after sucha long long time.. my grandparents will probably be the happiest ppl on earth
First experiences in all of those places!!! lolol
Nice meet up with Ernie after 1 year & 4 months
Got sprayed white foam by a random Indian guy~ kns asshole
Worked at USS
Made so many new friends in 2011

hmm, i think theres more, but i cant remember at all! Oh well, its almost 2012 already and my headache aint going away! Im gona wait for 2012 to come and head straight to bed cuz its hurting like mad:(

2011-12-30T03:17:00.002+08:00

just had to post this... irresistible
I WANT HER BODY!!! ZOMG
her legs are also nice & slim... and yeah, you can basically pull-off those kind of clothes plus those killer high heels
i bet she is damn pretteeee too
haiz, avoiding tumblr for the next hour or so! lol

2011-12-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

went out with mum today & had high tea at Hyatt Hotel and thereafter, headed to do some shopping around Orchard
high tea there was very different compared to the others we have been so far.. dont really like it though... there isnt much variety but nevertheless, customer service was really good! andddd the manager of the F&B is a pretty, friendly & hot ang mo lady! hahaa i know its random but i just had to say it
was a good day spent with her cuz its been a long time since we did this together :)
dad is coming back to Singapore tmrw morning and mum & i were thinking of going to surprise him at the airport and have breakfast together after that but my uncle is only going from Serangoon instead of Jurong:/ so we decided that we'll welcome him home instead! haha
speaking of which, one reason mum can sleep longer is becuz of her korean drama marathon once again.. omg she is hooked onto it like a sticky glue..madness tskk
happy and proud that i finished more than half of the work thats supposed to be done during the holidays!! weekends are nearing and 2012 is approaching... kinda depressing bcuz school is gona start and theres gona be mixed feelings in the coming weeks :(
haiz such is life

2011-12-28T01:23:00.002+08:00

was busy helping my aunt & mum with my late uncle's 3rd month death anniversary for the past 2 days
this time im present and able to help them with everything but dad wasnt cuz he is still in India
i wasnt around for my late grandfather's 3rd month death anniversary cuz i was in Shanghai but i skyped with my family & saw everything
cant believe it has been 3months and 9months since they left respectively.... time flies so fast, tat it seems that i can still rmb them vividly, with their physical presence around and the things they might do or say
just on monday there was prayers held at the temple for those departed in 2011... hate how im such an emotional beetch~ it was heartbreaking & emotional much but i controlled cuz no one was showing physically so it wldnt be good if i showed it
but it felt good cuz my everyone including my grandma went.. except dad wasnt around but we represented him :)
i slept with my aunt during my stayover at my grandma's hse and we were talking about my grandfather....
she was telling my how 1 year ago, on 26th Dec, my grandfather went for his check-up.. the test took a few days to be generated and on 30th Dec, the results came out in which my aunt was called to the hospital for the doctor had something to talk her about
she went home & broke the news to my 2 elder cousins, Deborah & Daphne.. still have yet to tell the rest
As for me, i went to Alexis hse for group project on new years eve & since she stayed near my grandparents hse, i went over to their hse! And that was when i was told about everything
Thinking about how fast 1 year just went by like that and we didnt expect things to happen so quickly, i cant help by really treasure everyday with whoever I am with.. simply bcuz life is fragile & that i dont want to have any regrets at all.. not even 0.1%
i hope this present number will stop and NOT CHANGE AT ALL!!!!! continue to be like this for all the years to come
idc if this is part and parcel of life.. yes im being stubborn but its just hard.. idk im just being very scared thats all
i can still rmb, weeks after i was in Shanghai, i kept imagining alot of things.. all the negative possibilities cuz i just wasnt accepting whatever that happened
and now, with the new year coming in a few days time, i'll most probably be thinking of the things that happened 1 year ago for the up coming months before all that changed in 2011
im not ready for 2012.. im not ready to grow up and accept reality
i want to turn time back to when i was much younger
i want to live in the past... pls
i want to be at the time where everyone was happy & everything was just easy:'(

2011-12-26T23:53:00.004+08:00

spent a really goood & memorable christmas this year with my cousins, aunt & grandma :)
~ simple home cooked dinner prepared by aunt with everyone talking & eating at the table
~ watched Jack Neo's ghost comedy movies while eating B&J ice-cream
~ played monopoly while watching Micheal Buble Christmas special
~ New girl marathon with my cousin
~ finished HIMYM episodes from where i left

im really glad i went & stayed over with them!
had alot thinking and going through my mind when i was with them
its really these small things that make me feel so homely/happy... idk how to explain this
not that i dont feel homely at my own home in jurong with my parents, but i just wished i had siblings
i think if i did, i swear i wld be the happiest person cuz i wld feel 100% complete (and no im not joking when im saying this cuz this is just whats inside me that i hardly talk about)
perhaps you guys wld be wondering why i am saying such things
almost all of my friends and both sides of my cousins have siblings and when i see them so close/doing stuffs/fighting with them etc, i admit i get kinda jealous and upset
yeah i got friends and cousins and even more interestingly, my parents cuz sometimes my parents act like small kids too which is hilarious but its just not the same with having your own "direct blood relations of young/old replica's of crystal" ok weird description but you get what i mean with that~ LOLLOLOLOL
my aunt was asking my 3 cousins & I who wld be doing what after dinner & all of us just said what we wanted to do.. it was hilarious cuz we just said whatever was left from the previous person! ok im weird but i really liked that feeling.. feels so warm and all! ok whatever im retarded but heck
its like what u see in those movies and all, but yeah it surprisingly happened to me in real life
i like it if my house is noisy... kids making noise or whatsoever!
yes i love it when i have guests over at my own home! even when my maternal grandparents used to come and stay with us, it was still a lil noisy all
but it all comes down to.. "Life isnt perfect & never what we always expect it to be"
So its alright with me being sibling-less
I have been living it for the past 20 years of my life so it aint a diff/prob to me anymore cuz im so used to it and im just tired of wishing for things to happen
if it does, then its definitely a good thing for me
Nevertheless, im very much thankful for my parents and everything they have given to me and also for my relatives & friends
still happy & satisfied with my 'fake siblings'~ lol esp my parents
hahahhaha sometimes i imagine small kids esp boys as my siblings getting bullied by my dad.. mum wld be the one asking dad to stop but she wld be the nice one... and as for me?? either i wld not care being the coool elder sis or i wld be joining in the fun with dad~ sounds like a perfect thing but ok that dreamy bubble will burst once i wake up from it
meh! i shld stop thinking of this.. depressing much, kns
shall sleep early cuz of grp meeting tmrw/later

2011-12-25T11:15:00.005+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEEPSIES :D
with christmas here, its a sign the year is coming to an end
i mentioned this and I'll say it again~ this year, it really doesnt feel like Christmas at all.. idky or maybe its just only me thats feeling like this
yeah perhaps its bcuz of what has happened this year and we didnt put up the christmas tree with the lightings & the train & presents all:/ i guess its just not the right time for all these
anyhooooooooooo>>>>>>>> YESTERDAY WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ WHOOOH (Y)
marked the end for everything for 2011
everywhere was packed and crazy, omg!!!! went to orchard & headed to clarke quay and it was madness
speaking of clarke quay, i swear, if i ever meet that indian man anywhere.... I WILL KILL HIM!!!!! my night was almost perfect but he had to ruin it by going up to me and spraying the foam on my hair and face too!! if not for Boon & Jack, i swear i would have given him a peace of my mind !@£$%^&* ARGH
chilled out and it was yet another night to not be forgotten!
it all just reminded me of my times in Qingdao at the student hostel~ plot & story all is almost the same except the location and the company
im just thankful for my ladies for the past 7years <3
lol, i cant believe its been 7years!! zomggg i feel so old, this isnt a good thing.. we are all growing up so fast D:
ok this isnt a good pict of the Polaroid picts but i will take a good one soon:)

<3<3<3

heeeeh babooon werveeee <3

the heading of the pict with Boon is gona land me in trouble with her but, its okkkk~ YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU RIGHT, MS NEO~ HEEEHEHE :D
had lil sleep cuz im heading to my grandma's house to spend christmas with her & aunt & cousins!! cant waitttttttttt

2011-12-22T18:21:00.003+08:00

was supposed to go Malaysia with my SH hsemates but i didnt realise my mum actually took my passport with her to India without me knowing until 1hr before meeting them!!!!!!!
i was panicking the whole morning bcuz i cldnt find it anywhere... ransacked my whole cupboard, bags & even went to find in the drawers of my parents where they usually keep the passports but to no avail! i decided to msg mum and this was what she replied "Yes its with me. Why? where you going without me?" NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :(
barely had 3hrs of sleep but i woke up feeling happy & excited, looking forward to going Malaysia only to have that excitement crushed within split seconds :'(
felt really bad bcuz it was bcuz of me that they had to change to today & Edmund fell sick ytd night and almost didnt go today... if i had checked it earlier when they asked about the trip, then all cld have gone ytd with everyone being "healthy"... so sorry guys :(
2nd time i missed the Malaysia trip/outing with them... mehhh
oh well, i decided to use the time i had to rest but i ended up watching tv instead of cleaning my room and ended up napping till early afternoon
the weather was just too good that i chose to stay at home the whole of today bcuz i just cldnt resist being indoors and enjoying the cool weather
msged both my parents to update them as well
and so, i have made up my mind to touch Med Law & WISP tonight so that i can feel productive and not guilty for enjoying myself ytd~heeeh
and speaking of ytd, I have found my inner-self!! trololololol (Y) shocking much, tskkk
alrightyyyy, i shall watch some tv first before starting work! laterrrr :)

2011-12-20T23:04:00.004+08:00

(taken after closing ceremony of YOG'10)

lol, i finally met up with Ernie after so many monthssssss!!! zomg
lets seee, 1 year & 4months to be exact, of us last seeing each other at YOG last year
we always wanted to meet but either of us was busy esp this year & cuz i was in Shanghai and he had A' levels
1 thing i forgot to do was to take a pict with him.. meh
not much diff, i dont hink we look any different from last year? haha ok maybe a little?
we talked alot about everything, updating each other about all that has happened! but i made him talk more to update me about everything cuz sounds more exciting!! its hilarious cuz he wld say things accidentally without realising & wld keep quiet and not want to continue... BUT i wld force him to continue it! HAHAHAHHAHA
it was a really really good catch up night! and he was really a gentleman too
oh yessss, i must say, never judge a book by its cover! lololol that was the takeaway i took from our 'date'!
hopefully next year we can meet up again, since he is going to the army soon

2011-12-20T01:48:00.006+08:00

Its 1 plus in the morning.... and i cant sleep at all
i was just clearing my stuff on my macbook few hours ago and i came across certain things and my heart just stopped beating for a few seconds as i tried to catch hold of my breath
i got reminded of the past and everything just came rushing into my head
i read and saw everything and tears just rolled down uncontrollably and before i knew, my keypad and shirt were all soaking wet
i kept laughing/smiling to myself at your expression of how you would look like when you spoke/type of every word. yes every word. every single word
no doubt & as gross as it sounds.. i miss you alot!
crazy as it sounds but yes, thats how much you mean to me. dont ask me why bcuz its something i cant explain easily, go figure it out yourself
i miss the past so much that its one of the things i would trade for if i had the chance to go back in time
i wanna go back to that period how we were, where everything was just like "rainbows & unicorns" (i have no idea what words to make it nicer but bare with me for this cheesy yet inappropriate words, but you get what i mean)
but now, everything is just happening to fast.. just too fast to absorb that it makes growing up suckier each day
its a lie that I know i can do much better without you!
its a lie that I know my heart is much strong for this!
its a lie that I know i wished i never met you!
though i really hate the fact of how things have turned out, i know that i should have expected all of what had already happened bcuz thats what i felt was best for everyone!
call me mean, self-fish, bad, horrible, beetch and the list goes on etc... but you have to understand where I am coming from! Looking at the situation, nothing cld have happened.. and will NEVER EVER happen in the future..
End of story.. full stop

2011-12-19T14:03:00.001+08:00

point that people need to take note

2011-12-19T13:55:00.002+08:00

saw something on twitter... must resist the temptations all!
otherwise history would repeat itself once again
like what my dad always say, DISCIPLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mind over heart

2011-12-18T14:06:00.002+08:00

1 week to christmas!!! whooooh
I CANT WAIT! :D
ok, idky but im just happy that Christmas is just around the corner
i dont know if im having anything planned for christmas or for christmas eve.. or both.. lets see how things goes
wished i could be celebrating it in NY or UK or somewhere, where its bloody cold, especially with snow!!
perhaps next year i would be able to experience this.. *crossing fingers*

2011-12-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

got intro-ed to One In A Million by Neyo today/ytd
the lyrics seem meaningful and after listening to less than 10 times, part of the lyrics felt so familiar... it looked as though i could be related to you or almost
wadever the case, im hooked onto that song now & im singing it loudly cuz no one is at home!!!
all doors are closed & no one is at home.. so no one can practically hear my singing
ok no joke, its the 100plus time on the youtube on replay mode
mehhhh, thanks ah jack! officially hooked onto the song.. lol

2011-12-17T22:23:00.001+08:00

i realise that there are certain songs i refuse to listen to on my ipod/itunes!
when they play, i will skip them because they bring back memories...
its only at certain times/places when the songs are being played that i have no choice but to listen to it which makes me uncontrollably reminisce the past
theres nothing much we can do about, can we?

2011-12-01T23:37:00.002+08:00

trying to get into the habit of blogging again. This is where i can vent anything or everything because its my personal space.
I wanna be old fashion and write in a diary, but most of the time, my mood prefers typing instead of writing. So i guess technology wins!
My appetite recently is scarily insane!! omg i dont even know why. Or mayb i do, STRESS!! but still, i can be hungry even after even cookies, chocolates, and chips too. its like there are worms living in my stomach that eat the food that goes into my stomach before it gets digested. And that could be the reason why I am hungry almost 24/7!
FATTERASS PIG YOU ARE, CRYSTAL!!!! TSK
anyways, its the start of the last month of the year, 2011! Basically what i am trying to say is, ITS THAT TIME OF THE YEAR :D
how time flies is really magical. sometimes fast, sometimes slow, something that cant be controlled with our hands.
And they say December is the month of joy & miracles. I agree, it is true!!!
my charger decided to 'die' on me when i wanted to charge my laptop in school. I tried so many times, witnessed by Nats and the others, but to no avail.
Alexis suggested that i bring it to the Mac shop at Heeren to change it for free, since its within the warranty year and its not damaged/spoiled.
Went there and the lady said it wld take 3-4 working days for me to be given the new one becuz they ran out of stock and i needed my warranty number. Hence i have to come back again to be in the 'queue' as its a first come first serve basis!
Went home and my sixth sense told me to give it a try again. I went ahead with my feelings and to my surprise, IT STARTED WORKING!!! OMGGGG
it felt as though life had a meaning once again and miracles do happen and...omg the lists goes on and on
i almost cried(yes, im an emotional beetch) cuz it turned from a 'no-hope' to a 'miracle' incident. And becuz of this, i suddenly thought of death.. ok shall not dwell in it
1st December, you have made the start of this month so memorable! continue to be like this kk, cuz im pretty sure im gona need alot more miracles, especially for school work :(
*fingers crossed*

2011-11-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

And thats why they say no one stays the same forever. Its part of growing up and people change. Worst, they even become the person you didnt expect them to be, not in a positive way. But strange & ironically, feelings remain the same.

2011-11-27T23:13:00.003+08:00

sooooooooooooooo~ HAI
its been awhile since i have been on my own blogger.. usually its me stalking & reading people's blogs
its been a month plus since school started and up to date, its going to be the 7th week tomorrow.
theres about 9more weeks till this semester ends.. which means freedom, which also means goodbyes to 3yrs of friendship made in FMS~ time seems to fly exceptionally fast this semester :(
1 weeks time, it'll be KCC's AGM 2011, and i would be officially stepping down from the committee and i would be CCA-less!! its gona feel weird but oh well, its part of this cycle
and this SEABREEZE thing... idk how or what or why or... I've been told to feel good/happy cuz its supposed to be a nice thing
but its hard to let go of what once u knew had you smiling for the dumbest & worthless reasons
worst, its one of the things which i miss the most from the past
WHY HEART WHY?

2011-10-24T01:23:00.002+08:00

im sorry for being like this...
i'd rather get misunderstood than tell the truth
but one day, you will understand & realize why all these happened
believe me, for now, its all worth it bcuz no harm is done :/

2011-10-22T01:50:00.001+08:00

things have lately made a turn
i think of it as a really good thing... but its also bad in a way:/
its just the past keeps coming back... or rather, i cant seem to let it go

2011-10-13T20:19:00.003+08:00

sometimes it doesnt pay to be caring & kind
urgh!!! thats it, im done with this & everything
heart aches & hurt but so what?
dont know whats wrong with my eyes & my heart... blind or what~ tsk
sick & tired of being the nice one but always getting misunderstood
washing my hands off it so im putting it all in the past & never turning back to this, ONCE & FOR ALL

2011-10-13T16:52:00.002+08:00

yesterday was probably the another climax of my life. hahahahahaahaha still feel that its so surreal
it just brings back memories from the past, making it bittersweet :/
though there are mixed feelings & emotions in it, im just glad about it.
and glad to have had them with me when it happened! thanks so much for making it an awesome one! u know who u guys are <3
hopefully i can do it again, but with less of a heavy heart :)

2011-09-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

thought i wouldnt have to go through it after what happened in March... but never did i expect it to happen again so soon.
this year, it really feels as though its cursed.
'Death is a part & parcel of life'
yes we have to accept it but its hard, isnt it??
and somehow or rather, i do agree with my aunt... "Sometimes its better not to get close to anyone, otherwise you will get hurt if anything happens, especially in this kind of situation"

2011-09-19T00:34:00.002+08:00

its just minutes after 00:00 & i dont feel the excitement that its my birthday
every year, around 23:55 on 18th september, i always switch on my favourite lights & wait for the the next 5 minutes to pass by for me to welcome 19th september (it sounds like some fairytale princessy thing.. but its not)
and when it hits 00:00, i feel the butterflies in my tummy and i feel like a small kid
but this year, it just didnt make me feel that way at all and i know there are 2 reasons as to why i felt like that.
its just really negative feelings & thoughts :/

2011-09-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

u dont know how much i miss you & how much you mean to me

2011-09-11T01:00:00.002+08:00

was browsing through Yahoo for my daily updates & see what i found!?!?!?!?!
5 habits that affect your your beauty on your face...

1) Sleeping with your make-up on.
2) Skipping meals.
3) Over exfoliating.
4) Over-moisturising.
5) Smoking.

i think i have done number 3 before.. definitely done 1, 2, 4 before!!! omggggg explains my bad face~ KNS

2011-09-10T23:58:00.003+08:00

very very happy that the past few days were spent with many loved ones <3
could not have been this much happier
but theres only one thing thats not making everything complete for me
Silent 4days Coldwar

today, being a saturday, a weekend, i actually felt lethargic & lazy & tired and so i decided to cancel plans and stay home after stayover from my grandparents house in the evening... the weather was another reason to that decision
but hopefully this coming week would be better?? just hope that it wld a good one with more meeting & catching up with people!!
need to know everyone has been the past few months...missing too many people :(

and recently, i dont know whats wrong with my eyes.. each day i wake up to having one eye red & i dont know if its sore eyes or not cuz the next day could be a different eye!! its just weird & scary
yes its painful & itchy but with only one eye and the next day the other?? its just creepy D:

2011-09-10T23:37:00.005+08:00

its not that i dont want, but i cant & you guys know why:/
so so many people here have been asking me about it for a long time and esp since i came back from Shanghai but i just had to refuse & reject... sorrrry
wait ok, the time will definitely come & i have a feeling by the time comes, maybe you guys wld regret?? it would be damn insane!! hahahahah
as much as im looking forward, everyday im just entertaining myself at home like some crazy woman...you wouldnt want to know!! lucky there arent any complaints from the neighbours~LOL
and when some songs are being played on my itunes, i swear, MEMORIES COME FLOODING MY MIND.... ADRENALINE RUSH 101!! and idky but when that happens i just laugh to myself... sweet & funny & nostalgic memories
2012, JUST WAIT FOR ME :D

2011-09-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

have been very annoyed about my skin since i was in shanghai
now im taking care of it hopefully it gets better & improves to become like how it was before entered poly... FLAWLESS!! hahahah eh what its trueee
i was looking at the pictures i have of myself 3 years ago, it was damn good & flawless, not a single pimple.. except that my face was darker bcuz of me constantly being under the sun
and now i got another problem to worry... the sunburnt from Qingdao isnt going away at all... i have a feeling the colour is gona stay permanently which is gona look ugly cuz its just my neck area & just above the chest area
the only thing i can never have any change is the fats thats entering my body.. KNS
if i actually lose weight & hit the ideal weight, i swear, it wld be the day that CHANGE takes place... trust me
otherwise, its just reality for now

2011-09-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

decided to download songs cuz i need to update my ipod which i have not updated since 6months ago bcuz all my songs are in my desktop & not in my laptop
ok, call me a slow but dang, Adele's songs are really damn good!!
love most of her songs!! it speaks what our hearts/minds are telling/feeling
and i love the tumblr pict above... true musician <3

2011-09-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

ok, need to stop my first sentence of my posts with 'cant believe' (look at the past 2 posts)
anw, jy & boon came to my hse to use the printer in the evening... havent seen the 2 of them for so longgggg, omg DAMN HAPPY & EXCITED that they came over
really missed them like hell & it felt like old times, hahahhahaha esp since its JIANYANG & BOON, lolololol (if u get what i mean)
only thing jack wasnt around :/
hello beetchaes(Jacklyn, Boon & Jianyang), WE ALL NEED TO MEET UP SOOON YA!!!! miss you guyss truckaloads <3
andandand i ran/jogged back from jianyang's home to home!!! so proud of myself
though it was only a teeny weeny bit of exercise, its a head start to start my exercise plan!
like what my dad says, i need to have discipline
on a side note, im getting better..hopefully i can go out & meet up with peepsies cuz im stucked at home, being a couch potato, eating like nobody's business(explains my current size)
depressing ttm :'(

2011-09-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

cant believe i have been blogging consecutively... shall seize the opportunity now whenever i can otherwise when school starts, i wont have the chance to have at least an entry post in a month
sunday it is today & it has been gooood, loving my first weekend here back in singapore
so happy that some of my cravings have been satisfied (Y)
dad went for his 21km army marathon & came back looking skinnier!?!? his legs ah, i tell you, damn skinny, like bamboo pole (yes, im very jealous of it)
and he threw his dirty & smelly & soaking wet running top on me when he came back~knssss
and speaking of which, i have gained weight since i got back from shanghai, fml
but on a lighter note, during dad's taking over ceremony on thurs, dad's bosses & colleagues all said i lost weight & look good & that i looked confident
whoaaa, made my day!!!!!! smiling throughout tooooo, heeeheeeh :D
BUT im afraid its not gona last long, so hopefully by next week, after i recover from my sickness, im going to the gym or im just gona go for my runs
need to really lose, PRONTO
so embarrassing if i go back to being fatter again :'(
siannnnn, ok shall stop complaining and get ready to have lunch!! ahahah

2011-09-03T22:54:00.001+08:00

cant believe im back in singapore for gooood
it feels as though im back here for a short getaway & im going back to shanghai, like i belong & lived there all my life
its really strange how the 6 months have bypassed so fast & towards the end, all of us werent really looking forward to parting & coming back to singapore
but like *i cant rmb who* said, we have had our fun there & that our time was up to head back to reality! at the end of the day, you'd have to go back to where you came from.. so here we are, preparing ourselves for the next half of the semester of school
of cuz, we have a little holiday between which has already started & would last til Oct, that is 1 month 2 weeks to the start of school
camp ended ytd & wasnt that bad.. just that the campers looked so foreign to me cuz i dont know any of them! but the camp was a success, stayed in the loft for the final time of my ngee ann years
now that we are back, its a good time to really rest, recharge ourselves, catch up with friends & spending time with our families
AND the worst part is, i fell sick just after i came back from Shanghai.. having flu, cough, sore throat thats hurting so freaking badly :(
everyone suspects that im trying to adapt back to Singapore's weather & that it got worst during camp, which i totally agree
i call it, POST SHANGHAI SYNDROME!! hahahhaha
hopefully i can recover asap so that i can go out!! cuz my parents arent allowing me to go, afraid that my sickness might get worst
cant deny that they are right,so i shall stay at home today, being a saturday & just nua all the way
and i look so cui, my eyes are red, suken in & i look so haggard! sucks to be sick, i swear
wah lao, this medication is driving me nuts, im feeling sleepy & drowsy~ worst of all, i feel so lethargic & weak!! ok whatever, im heading for my afternoon nap!! cant tank anymore

2011-08-31T00:51:00.002+08:00

IM BACK IN SINGAPURA BEECHAESSSSSS :D
feels good to be home but im still missing shanghai alot
will blog again soooon, pardon me cuz i will be busy for the next few days as i have KCC camp later till friday so wont have much time to blog
promise to do it after i come back :)
skyping with nurul now, shall be back again, ciao

2011-07-26T15:14:00.001+08:00

why is it haunting me so much now?
my heart keeps pounding fast
thoughts running fast like a bullet train, flashing through my mind making me remember everything
i can honestly say this is not what i expected, neither was it what i wanted in the first place.
this is something the mind doesnt understand what the heart is thinking
the whole time, only one thing was on my mind
and with this, one things for sure :)

2011-07-24T18:42:00.002+08:00

After so long, yet despite getting new ones, the outcome remains the same. I ask myself the same question every freaking single day, but i have no answer to it.
Its like solving a math question. You have the formula~ the equation is correct, but your answer just doesnt seem to be right. And at the end, it makes no sense.
Just yesterday, i went to the temple in Zhou Zhuang and the priest talked to me about it. He said a sentence which i feel has 2 meanings to it.. but idk which is the meaning he was implying.
As the chinese saying goes, '顺其自然'. In English it means 'Let nature take its course'.
These kind of things can neither be rushed nor controlled.
I always focus more on the present than the future... need to change that thought, pronto

No doubt, you are irreplaceable...
No doubt, you cant be forgotten...

2011-07-23T16:50:00.000+08:00

you have no idea how happy i am tonight...
it totally made my night, it really felt like old times, brought so many many memories back...
almost teared, i swear!! LOL
it was like the cream on top of my ice blended javachip..just perfect to end my night
if its like this all the time, i really would be the happiest person ever, just contented with the little & smallest stuff.

2011-07-18T15:40:00.002+08:00

Just waiting for time to past & suddenly many thoughts just gushed into my head, making me to have mixed feelings about lots of stuff...

Sometimes i wish things to go back to how it started cuz that feeling, unknowingly, is irreplaceable & the best.
No one can predict the future. Hence, its better to treasure what you have now. Do not wait till its gone, and thats the time you start having regrets & feel shitty about everything.

2011-07-18T15:19:00.003+08:00

sitting in starbucks chilling while doing my work stuff is THE LIFE!!!! (Y)
one word to describe my current feeling now 'blissful' :)
so anyway, spent my weekend with my parents
havent seen them for 4 months & the first second when i saw them, HAPPINESSSSSSS TTM :)
my friend said it was because i have not seen them for a long time & so that was the reason why i felt like that when i saw them. and yeah, i agree with him too
neither of my parents have changed at all, dad is just being lame most of the times & joking more & more.. LOL
mum is either getting bullied by dad & i OR mum & i gang up against dad!! haha
breakfast ytd morning was gooooood too, thought the only disappointment was.. NO PANCAKES AT THE HOTEL!!! KNS thats my only craving now which my taste buds is dying for
i doubt i will eat pancakes here in shanghai for breakfast :/
shopping was great, mum was a happy customer all the time, dad as usual was inspecting/observing & creating lame jokes~ hahaha
the only thing that did 'spoil' the mood was when my parents came to see my apartment in Shanghai.. shall not say anything abt it, but i dont agree 100% with my parents too

2011-07-16T15:05:00.002+08:00

ytd was one really crazyass night of my life...
one word to describe it "DRAMATIC"!!!! hahaha
something which i never expected, but well, it was interesting to have gone through it.
now, im chilling here at Starbucks waiting for time to pass & thereafter, im heading to the airport to fetch my parents.
they will be staying for 10 days here in Shanghai at Swissotel Shanghai, which is 1 stop away from my home.. i bet my mum wld be damn happy when she finds out about this, lol
idky but im actually excited & nervous at the same time to see them :)
CANT WAIT YOOOOooooo, heehee :D

2011-07-11T12:32:00.000+08:00

if i could write the letter now, i would.
and hell, YES IT WOULD BE ONE DAMN LONG LETTER
with everything told in detailed & basically explaining everything from the start to the end, a-z... just basically blurting out everything that i feel is necessary
but i feel now isnt the time for me to think of this because I know im not prepared for anything like this, i know im not ready for anything thats gona happen either
sometimes, just out of the blue, randomly, perhaps when im on the bus going home late at night, or in the cab going to work, i can think of things that i want to write inside that letter. But if you ask me to think of it & write it now, I cannot remember much & neither can i write it.
i wonder how long will this last... i dont like to give myself targets because i know i never hit them, instead they turn out to be not what you expect, ALL THE TIME.

2011-07-04T12:13:00.001+08:00

today, i will tell you my thoughts on life in 3 words...
no, its not the usual "IT GOES ON"
its~ "NEVER SAY NEVER"
i have many many points to prove it; be it personal or other people's
and when i think about, it, i realise how true it is
why? because you end up eating your own words & as the saying goes, 'What goes around, comes around".. in other words, KARMA.
and so i shall end of by saying that its the same as "Be careful of what you wish for" :)

2011-06-28T17:46:00.001+08:00

I truly treasure each & every one of my friendships with people, esp those that lasted long.
And i will never ever let them go easily, unless due to certain circumstances/reasons, establishing a friendship with this person is just not for me.

ITS NOT THE END.....

2011-06-28T10:18:00.004+08:00

ok, i have rested enough for today.. rested meaning sleep
Its weird & funny when i fall sick & sleep too much, i tend to get irritated when I sleep too much. I get a lil cranky & so i will rest & do whatever i can, but less movements.
Yesterday was seriously one hell of a nightmare, which I dont wanna go back to:/
kept having this urge to vomit!! its annoying cuz you feel like theres something stucked in the midst of your throat but you cant seem to get it out & you will feel uncomfortable.
Fortunately, i took the charcoal pills & POOOF!!!! i was able to vomit it ALLLLLLL out.
Unfortunately, my stomach wasnt getting any better & it was hurting like a beetch! KNS
like i mentioned in my earlier posts, my stomach has been hurting for the past weeks, and they wer sort of like diarrhea... but now it isnt. its like a sharp needle pain, right smack in the middle of my stomach. only in the middle & not the sides which is weird cuz i never had this kind of pain before. its either side or the whole of my stomach
oh well, i have rubbed the medicated oil & it still isnt working
shall bear with the pain.
i told my supervisor about not going to work today & he did scare me alittle by saying i may HAVE TO GO ON DRIP if i were to go hospital!! NOOOOOO die die also dont want to experience that here!
and i have waited to close to 3 hours for my porridge that i have no appetite to eat & wait anymore.. argh
i swear, its worst than PMS~bloody hell
and i just realised, i took close to 2hours to type this post, lying down on the couch & laptop sideways on the sofa & using one hand (Y) cuz my stomach still hurts so badly :'(

2011-06-23T16:32:00.003+08:00

i think i would score points for this game of pushing
I push people away alot & it happens all the time.
So much so, people get sick of it & perhaps even me too.

2011-06-21T11:01:00.002+08:00

i used to blog alot & within a week, i would have close to 5-6 posts. But as you grow, it changes.
You have lesser time to blog about your daily routine, UNLESS you really make the effort to make time or prioritize your time properly.
But unfortunately, i dont prioritize my time properly at all.
My stomach has been hurting & i have been quietly suffering for the past 2weeks but after i go to the toilet its better...within one day i have 3-4 toilet trips and i have no choice but to use the office toilet too :/
stomach churns alot & has weird noises, like the ones that signal you that your stomach is hungry & needs fooood, buts its worst than that cuz its more painful
for me, i think i dont like going to the doctors cuz its a waste of money when i can just rest & take my own medication. And ever since Ievan said "If you are in pain, SUCK IT UP. Cuz pregnancy is 10times worst than this", its forever etched in my memory. So whenever im experiencing any kind of pain, be it; injuries, menstrual cramps, stomachache etc, that sentence just pops into my head & i will SUCK IT UP, which is true
i really cant imagine myself going through 9months of pain esp when im going into labour/delivery... that'd probably be the worst/best day of my life.
Worst: pain sucks & its damn bloody shitly painful ttm...dk who will be by my side when im going through it :'(
Best: a new chapter is about to begin, which im looking forward to alot :)
i can do this, this pain is like menses, just that i go toilet more than when im having my period!! and that makes my butt so painful :/
KNSSSSSSS

2011-06-20T14:05:00.002+08:00

for now, i really wished i wasnt born at all:(
why am i so dumb, gullible & maybe even useless!??
I think i give people problems and I create more problems for people.. in other words, 越帮越忙
also, I believe in people too easily.. but my sixth sense do play a part too!!
i bet even 6/7 year old kids are even more smarter than me
the past few days just isnt going well for me at all... i wish im under some spell/curse, hoping this curse/spell would be broken and never to be with me again!! BUT obviously, im living in the real world and nothing will be 100% perfect & smooth sailing in life
i feel that people should not have high expectations from me or at least want something from me in return cuz i know i will disappoint them alot.
And i swear to god, if anything happens from now till the end of our internship here, i will never ever ever forgive myself.
it will forever haunt me
if theres a need for me to sacrifice anything, i will definitely do it. no matter what cost it takes. I'd rather do it cuz then i wld feel less guilty about it :'(

2011-06-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

just a few days ago, i suddenly thought of my parents and related things...
i think i really miss them a hell lot, esp my dad's jokes & sarcasm... and my mum getting bullied by my dad & i... no, i dont miss my mum's nagging cuz she does that everytime i skype with her~hurrr
mum then msged me today saying she misses me very very much, my grandparents sent their love & hugs & kisses to me.. i wanted to cry so badly!!
and i thought to myself, what if this kind of situation happens again in the future, me going away & not living with them? im abroad & my parents are in Singapore working or who knows, they might have retired...
and i thought of telling them something, something very personal to/about me... but im afraid of saying it to them, especially to my dad!! idky why i had this thought of wanting to share & tell them.. i think im really crazy to have this kind of thinking
i imagined how my mum would react when i tell about it, and what kind of state i would be; i would be crying & she would be comforting me & advising/nagging at me about it..
this is really so weird & random! lol i cant believe i am actually thinking of all this now~
whatever the case, i only know they will be coming in July, and i would be spending time with them alot to make up for the lost 3months plus of not being with them..
and now, i shall go get ready for bed :)

2011-06-01T11:36:00.001+08:00

how do you tell your heart this!?

2011-05-31T11:38:00.002+08:00

When i walked away, you pulled me back & so i returned.. leaving me no choice but to stay with you :/

2011-05-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

“Yesterday, the 15th of May

One of which was a special day.

I was happy outside, but i was crying inside

No doubt I think of you every day & night.

54th years of marriage, be it in life or death

One thing’s for sure, its a beautiful fact.

Grandma always has you running in her mind

We all know she just needs abit more time.

Wished you could come back to be with us

Because we miss you very much.

A wound so deep with a big cut

Will forever remain in my heart.”

♥

No, im not ok :'(

2011-05-15T23:50:00.007+08:00

its exactly 2months since we came to Shanghai!
and i have OVER PASSED THE LIMIT which i never expected it to happen so fast! LOL
so, i went to club for the very first time....
so, i pierced my ears after 19years....
YUP! thats it! hahahahhaha
my parents know about the first one, but the second one, they are still in the dark!(not unless ppl go & tell them...) i will tell them when the time is right kk, pinky promise :)
past 2 nights have been crazy but it was fun
its edmund's bday today (nbd right, i know~LOL jkjk) he is finally 20, so old
we celebrated his bday WITH CLASS ok, tskk

went to a Korean restaurant to have dinner & Edmund brought BESSIE along to meet us..
hahaha inside joke
FOOOD WAS HEAVENLY GOOOD <3333
and We all like BESSIE alot, heeh :)
headed home to chillax & we surprised him at 00.00
soon after, the rest went to club except me & Ernest
with the honour from my parents, I went to club because it was THE KING'S bday!! i had the chance to surprise him 2times.. despite the dark lightings in the club, i still can vividly remember his expression when he saw me! HAHA wont.ever.forget.i.swear.PRICELESS
had the best first clubbing experience ever, thanks to the great & awesome company :D

had the chance to eat my pancakes once again, but for brunch. nua-ed till 4plus & we all left home to shop except Mel.
Had another dinner celebration for Edmund & Mel brought her friend along too.
Interesting person :/
Overall, dinner was good, very different! atmosphere was fantastic:)
walked home & camwhored abit & everyone started to whine about completing log! ahahha
and i just wished 8people on facebook... D:

once again, Happy birthday beetch ♥
a pict of you enjoying your food, what you do best LOL!! hahahah (zoom in into the pict)
OOOOK, GO LEARN SOME FRENCH & THEN COME BACK AND TEACH ME!!! (its an order, btw)

2011-04-29T23:15:00.001+08:00

just less than 2 months, another blow to deal with..
is death really necessary!? what, to replace new ones!?
This week is one hell of a week, which honestly speaking, a really fucked up week that i really hate alot. Its worst than my normal hectic school week. Maybe i will label it as the worst week i have ever had in my 19years.. Sounds really extreme but i think it has just gone beyond my imagination. I never expected to go through such a painful experience silently
Even my meals have changed abit...
For breakfast & lunch, i tend to eat normally (either way i would eat more than the other).. as for dinner, i lose my appetite and i end up not eating properly at all...
But on the bright sight, it will help me in my goal though!!!! heheh
theres so muh i wanna talk about, but all of a sudden im unable to type it down...

i want to go back to the past.. i really want to.. the present is haunting me so badly now, i cant handle it at all.. PLEASE :’(

2011-04-16T23:25:00.001+08:00

yes. im angry & pissed off at you.
WHY!?
for being insensitive. im having a badass headache and yet you are treating me this way. you make it look as though im sucha burden to you & everyone.
!@£$%^&*

2011-04-01T11:45:00.002+08:00

came into the office this morning, feeling very different
idky im feeling like this
or maybe i do, but i dont want to admit it...
and ironically, i was tumblr-ing & i came across this typography & it was actually explaining how i was feeling etc
i kept thinking about it & things that happened previously regarding this...
and i ask myself, how to run away from all this!? its so difficult, esp the situation im in now..
haizzzz, why so ma fan one!????? argh kns

2011-03-30T12:23:00.003+08:00

soooooo.... im at work & i have nothing to do at all
my supervisors & bosses have not been around since yesterday
but i was kinda productive yesterday.
i went online to learn the body parts & internal organs in chinese cuz the focus group did cover abit on them & i was lost!! anyway, its good for me cuz it will make me knowledgeable & smarter too!! heh
lunch time soon in about 20mins!! might settle for bread & cashews cuz Edmund says he is gona cook dinner ...PRAY FOR US THAT WE WLD BE ALIVE TMRW!! hahaha
need to control what i eat.. i think its easier here than in Singapore!!

"EAT LIKE A QUEEN FOR BREAKFAST, EAT LIKE A COMMONER FOR LUNCH, EAT LIKE A BEGGAR FOR DINNER"- Dream High

this has been my theory since i came to Shanghai!!! if this happens everyday, life would be a bliss for me!! hehe IF YOU GET MY HINT :D
still left with about 3hrs & 25mins till i finish work!! most prob go home early to relax & nua & maybe even watch Bigbang theory!!
omgg, i love Sheldon Cooper, he's SHO CUTEEEEEEEE & HILARIOUS <3
alright, shall go read up on my stuffs IN CHINESE!! shall blog again sooooon

2011-03-27T21:33:00.009+08:00

You left. Thats what changed. EVERYTHING.
There were so many things that you wanted to do. But there was just too little time. it was unfair
I was so caught up with schoolwork, i couldnt spend time with you.
I had stupid exams that I also couldnt visit you regularly when you were in the hospital.

What im more upset about is, you didn’t keep to your promise to me, you said before I go to Shanghai. But I know you were around when it happened…

Seeing dad really upset about you leaving, it breaks my heart even more that he has regrets about not doing things with you & not telling you about some things which he felt you would be proud of him.
its been 21days since I last saw you. Not a day has passed that I do not think of you. I keep thinking im in a bad dream that when I wake up, you are still around I can just take the train to visit you.
I worry for alot of people, especially grandma & aunt. The 2 women whom you were closed to your entire life & loved with your heart.
You know, i was looking through the picts that has you before leaving for Shanghai, and it makes meknow i miss you so much more.
Thats why they say, people always dont treasure what they have until actually lose it, that its the time they regret it alot.
I still remember I went to visit you & bought you your favourite colourful kueh on new year's eve. You would take your time & eat layer by layer. I would always laugh to myself, thinking how cute you were, looking like a little baby.
I can remember vividly, the day you woke up after your deep slumber sleep, you smiled to me all of a sudden when I talked to you. My heart sinks for awhile & my eyes get teary...
I still see/imagine your figure, remembering how you walk, talk, sit etc.
Hope you are in a better place, at peace & perhaps having your favourite oats in the morn, rice with soup for lunch, tea with a slice of cake during tea time & fried noodles with ketchup for dinner.
Rest assured, we will take care of grandma, aunt & dad. I miss you so much & I love you <3

(Family photo of dad's side, taken in 1987)

(Parents wedding dinner, taken in 1987)

(Last pict together with Grandpa, taken on 27th November 2011)

2011-02-23T02:36:00.002+08:00

hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha,last post...31st Dec 2010!!!lol
total failure sia!!and the worst part,i said i will post on 1st Jan 2011,KNS MAJOR FAILURE TTM
did i mention i wanna change my blogskin!??i want a simple yet awesome blogskin!current one is making me feel..blaaaaah(its to say a neutral expression, for me)
i realised,i have too much to say..or shall i say,i have so much i want to say but i dont think i have the guts to say it!cuz there are consequences to it :(
its rather complicated,so i guess i shall zip my mouth & keep it locked & remain it a secret till idk!mayb when the time is right!?
so anyhow,its 2.47am & im still not so sleepy cuz of the evening nap i took & the Iced-blended Java chip i drank hours ago!
supposed to be studying & yet im distracted by so many stuffs online!and so you see ma friends,the online platform is a very intriguing place,so many things just catches my attention within a split second & im having more than 10 tabs opened in one window!FASCINATING
and i have decided,i shall not post/say my new year resolution cuz they arent meant to be said..cuz if you say them,theres this taboo which doesnt make them come true..
at the end of 2011,i shall say whether my resolutions were a success & if it came true :)
i think i should blog more often once im done with my last paper,which is on next monday,28th Feb!
ok,shall continue studying for awhile before going to sleep!nitee

2010-12-31T23:45:00.002+08:00

I FINALLY AM TAKING MY TIME TO BLOG....SINCE TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF 2010
i have procrastinated & lazed so its really time that i blogged!!!omg

so lets have a short recap of 2010!

Best Chinese New Year celebration/visitings ever with Sec sch friends
Started to get influenced by ppl around me to eat Ice-cream..
First class T1P2 outing @ Marina Barrage
First NP overseas trip to Malacca
K-POP passion/love died alot cuz of school...
Westwood Sec's 10 anniversary..went back & saw so many familiar faces
Went to TIMBRE for the first time in my life with sec sch friends
Became part of a small family called FMSA SMT
Smaller class of T2P2
Met many new friends
First time after so many many years,our whole family was reunited
Started learning dance
First time ever,chalet with no adults around!!hahah
Worked in an ice-cream shop for the first time in my life (NEVER IMAGINED I WLD BE DOING THAT,BUT IT HAPPENED)
Participated in YOG 2010
Saw David Choi
KCC camp was hell of funn
Did alot of baking
Went to Shanghai for the first time in my life
Boon went Korea for internship
HAVING THE WORST SEMESTER EVER IN SCHOOL~KNS
FMSU Camp was dabomb!!
Learnt German
Shared Wine with mum for the first time ever in my 19years
Saw JJ Lin standing behind me in the taxi queue~lol
Wore a long evening night gown for the first time in my life for Nina's 18 debut
Had VIP tix to see Sylvia Ratonel @ St James
Alot of outings with alot of ppl
Became part of KCC committee
Fell in love with hamsters~I WANT A HAMMIE....
STILL NO CLUBBING AT ALL!!HAHAHAHA

I think this is all thats happened for the past year!so many memorable things that happened..family members left us all of a sudden...made new friends...too many EHEMS!hahaha
so yup!at least i did a final post of 2010!cant believe its gona be 2011 cuz i wld be in year3!ZOMG NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO INTERNSHIP AT ALL,IDKY :(
i need to change my blogskin cuz i dont really like it at all
and so,i will post my 2011 new year resolution,HOPEFULLY TMRW
bye ya'll :)

2010-10-24T00:50:00.002+08:00

yesyesyes

i didnt keep to my promise again

im so sorrrrrrry

supposed to update & all but yeah,i just got busier & busier

FMSU camp is now over..only thing left is SCHOOOOOOOOOL

its starting tmrwwww..NOT LOOKING FORWARD( idt anyone is,except looking forward to meeting up with friends & teachers)

it was a good sem last sem!just pray & hope this sem wld be better,though i think it wld be worst judging from what the other APR kids said...

crap!oh welll life still goes on!heck

good nite! hope first day of school wld be okkkkkk

2010-10-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

donkey monkey dinosaur ages since i updated my blog!!hahahahahah

yes,i keep wanting to update,but it seriously just goes under drafts!

anyways,so many many many things have happened!

to sum it up, it has been awesome,SO FAR!!!

YOG, KCC camp, unique 19th bday celebration, Shanghai Study Trip...(cnt rmb what else)

im having hols now, awaiting for FMSU camp to start before Sem2 begins!

the cycle goes on..AGAIN!!sucks but yeah,we have to live with it

and i really need to change my template layout!!sick of it & its not appealing at all anymore!!hahahahahaha

shall blog more tmrw about today!!

now,its time for my beauty sleep cuz panda eye bags are just getting heavier & darker each day!£@%^&*

gooood nite

2010-07-18T17:51:00.001+08:00

i have so many post but its all saved as drafts!

so much to rant & whine & complain & say here but i just didnt post it~nooob

just wanna say~

one word to describe today..

AWESOME COOLIO SHIZZZ

its been ages since i last saw India(indy) & Jordan, my 2 cousins from NZ & Aussie

they have not changed much except becoming older & wiser~haha

Shar is coming on thursday & i seriously cant wait cuz then(i've been waiting & wanting to say this line for a very very long time!!)OUR WHOLE FAMILY WOULD BE RE-UNITED ONCE AGAIN :D

whenever they come to sgp, its either 2 of them comes or 1 of them,either way(not all 3 of them) & it doesnt complete the family(to me)

so yeah!becuz its one of my other cousin's wedding,thats why everyone wld be here at the same time

all i can say,i so totally cant wait for the whole of this week & am looking forward to it!

and hmmm,mayb some extra fun??if you get the hint,GOOD!teehee

ciao :D

2010-06-23T01:19:00.003+08:00

its the mid of 2nd week of holidays & i still havent revised much for test when sch re-opens

anyway,went to watch Nanny McPhee & the Big Bang with Edmund ytd

it was damn niceeeeeee :)

3 days more & weekends wld be here & sch wld start~hurhur

i still havent revised for the upcoming tests when sch reopens!!!!MATI UH :/

im gona be home the whole day today~so i better get my ass to study if not i wont be able to catch up at all!!

opportunities dont come easily,strike it while the iron is hot. Otherwise, you might regret it for the rest of your life :D

2010-06-19T12:55:00.003+08:00

im back from chalet

thurs night, i told my parents im going for a CCA chalet & somehow i managed to convince them to let me to stay over

i feel bad,i really do!though i did not do anything behind their back/no hanky panky or whatsoever~but i just feel bad!i don't how to explain

nevertheless,it was a blast!as in the main reason was for all of us to hang & chill bcuz of the hectic sch work~AND WE DID JUST THAT (Y)

the sad & disappointing part was,the turn up was very kinda little

only me & jess came from FMSA!

those who stayed over:zakee,zakee gf(faith),siti,jessica,inez,leon

those who dropped by:lynno,adin,shery,fanny,melissa,wan & i cant rmb who else

BUT A VERY BIG & HUGE THANKS TO ZAKEE,FOR ORGANIZING IT :D

talking abt zakee,he brought & introduced his girlfriend to us!

i think all of us like his gf!hahaha so totally opposite him!don mess with her mannx,4.0 GPA pointer okkk~damn smart omggg

& zakee seriously, damn bitchy & mean~i was laughing at his epic face to......YEAH you guys shld get the hint

i don't know who was it that i told,either siti or jessica~one of they reason why we are becoming so close to one another is because of SOMETHING!its kinda obvious & everyone knows & can feel it too~but its not nice at the same time :/

we cycled ALOT,like seriously alot!to & fro good exercise for me

had dinner at lagoon village~AWESOME FOOOD(esp sambal stingray):D

we played games(indoor/outdoor/card) & chit chatted & ate & cycled & finally slept~loved it

THOUGH I DID NOT GET MY ASS TO WATCH SUNRISE!!NEH NEH

i'll aim that on the next chalet stayover :)

had breakfast at parkway's KFC~

headed for dance lesson after that!damn shagged

we did not take that much pictures though at the chalet!but we will camwhore on next friday,with the freshies during the BBQ night after FMSA training!

teehee cant wait :D

2010-06-18T10:29:00.002+08:00

its FINALLY fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~teeheehee

the first week of hols is going to be over soon

and before you know it, school would be starting & assignments would be due

its damn scary how time flies so fast~dang

oh well,today is a good day!hahaha

having CCA chalet later in the afternoon

cant waittttttttttt

okkk,its only 10 in the morning & im damn high already

imagine when im at the chalet,i wld be like 1234567890 times 'HIGHER' laaa

im not making sense at all

whatever!to have fun is the main priority

2010-06-07T23:15:00.001+08:00

there were so many times i wanted to talk

but i was afraid :/

2010-06-05T11:21:00.002+08:00

Prince Of Persia was AWESOME!!!!!!

zomg,the lead actor was just damn bloody HOT & HANDSOME & CUTE & SEXAE andandand ok idk what else to describe him!he is just damn drop dead good looking :D

and the lead actress,she is just a beauty!my cousin says she has a great figure!& i love her voice,so sweet & crisp!ok sounds like im describing a typical morning~hahah

its 11.30am on a saturday morning. both my mum & cousin are still asleep...dad went to work and wld only be back in the late aftn

however,i wont be around by then!im off for some awesome time with FMSA peepsies! will blog more about it once i come back

PREEEEETY PLEASE DONT LET IT RAIN BY THEN!!!!!!WE NEED A GOOD & WARM & BREEZY SUNNY WEATHER

shall reveal the juices & spices details later~teehee

anyway, the past few days have been quite a bump!

ONE MORE WEEK TILL HOLIDAYS!!I SO CANT WAIT FOR IT!!

I REALLY WANT A GETAWAY,LIKE GET OUT OF SINGAPORE & GO FOR A WEEK HOLS WHEREVER IS COOL FOR ME :D

but knowing my parents,i don't think they wld allow...i don' know how to convince them either~dang

OH,I NEED TO GO SHOPPING SO BADLY!

MUM: your bag looks old & is tearing apart

ME: ya,i need to go shopping

MUM:ok good!when you wanna go?

ME:you give me $$$ and i go on my own

MUM:(laughs) nonsense,we either go together or you use your own money!!

oh wells!shall go with her shopping when hols start!hahahah

and go shopping with the rest of you peepsies as well!(Y)

CANT VAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!heehee

2010-05-30T22:57:00.008+08:00

May is coming to an end in a day's time

time is passing so fast & the cycle will repeat once again

soon its gona be major presentations,assignments piling up like moutain sky high

dark eye bags forming like pandas' making us looking & acting like zombie becuz of lack of sleep

i did not sleep for 2days straight!i dono where the hell i get my energy to be so alert & awake

i cant say i hate school bcuz of the lovely people around which make me stronger everyday

anyway,thursday marked the end of nightmare part1! more of those kind of series to come,as i mentioned earlier

aft assignment submission, went to meet marcus & wolfgang cuz we said to meet up sooon!it was a last min thing!chilled out at w's workplace & marcus was doing his assignments(i helped him abit too!hah)both of them were saying about someone coming over later & that he is seriously damn funny....I AGREEEEE!!hahahahaha ohmyfreakingod,i was laughing almost every sec of the time~lokies is dead hilarious!haha

so putting the 3 of them together....i think my cheeks felt it went for major botox

when they 'argue/pick on each other',its just damn funny,I SWEAR!hahahah

they asked me to go clubbing with them on fri alot of times,but i turned them down!sorry,mayb when the time is right?hahah

nevertheless,it was an awesome night spent with them :D

its exactly one week

you know i got nothing to say except,SORRY.

but im glad you understand!

& stop with those.......im not trying to be mean or what but its disgusting & i don like it

sorry again

bye

2010-05-21T23:10:00.003+08:00

week5 has been a rocky yet emotional week and its going to end sooon :/

then comes the nightmare week....WEEK6 IS SERIOUSLY ONE HELL OF A BITCH WEEK!!!hahaha

cuz the 2 report assignments are due & 2 assessed tutorial tests are in the same week as well!!!KNS

i don think the rest of the people in other courses have sucha a hectic life/week like us

ok,im complaining & whinning as usual!!

& GUESS WHAT???

i gave up the chance of getting almost $60 in a day tmrw because of......THE REPORTS!!!!!!need to do them if not last min work,is seriously very tiring & gets me damn irritated

report doing is so not something im looking forward to

but tmrw night,i have a 21st bday party to attend!the venue of it is damn coool!hahaha

AT F1 PIT YOOOOOOOO!!i did not know u cld hold functions there!

oh wait!that explains the flea market me,mel,jack & boon went the other time!!HAHAH ok im slow~shuddup,dont judge

i was telling siti that we need to go party next thurs &/or friday, to mark & celebrate the end of DOOMSDAYHELLBITCH WEEK!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahah

we shld do that,seriously!!we need a break as well cuz everythgs just happening too fast

alright!

its time for YOG report!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-15T21:53:00.002+08:00

EDMUND ONG WEI MING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

remember this pict??coolsomeshit right??hahaha(Y)

im awesome,IKNOW

anyhooo,HAPPY BIRTHDAY,BITCH :)

hope you enjoyed yourself & liked the presents & cake we got you :D

be honoured,one whole post dedicated to you laa!!

love you & take care

♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-05-09T12:50:00.003+08:00

wishing all mums over the world a Happy Mothers' Day

went for the run with my dad & he trained me,giving me tips on how i shld run & do my exercises so that i can lose weight!im so disappointed & angry & pissed at myself cuz my stamina dropped like shit~dad said its real bad :/

after that we went home & i fell asleep & skipped breakfast cuz i was really exhausted

then mum msged me sayin we were goin to Fosters for tea & scones

BY FATE,WE SAT NEXT TO 3 KOREAN SIBLINGS!HAHAHAHA DAMN HAPPY TEEHEE GOT HOT GUY YOOO

headed to both side's grandparents hse aft tea

then Arie texted me sayin he had a surprise for me

BTW,arie is/was denzel..his parents just changed his name this yr...basically,my uncle changed the whole family's name except for aden's name~idky!still tryin to get used to all their new names..its sooo NVMDDD

anyway,guess what his surprise was....

BLOODY HELL,HE LOST FREAKING 17KG WITHIN 6WEEKS!I SERIOUSLY HATE BUT ADMIRE HIM AT THE SAME TIME~HE LOOKS SO DIFFERENT FROM LAST TIME

cuz he tried to lose but it just got worst,he kept putting on weight instead!

now he looks so much good looking,tall,handsome,slimmer,manly etc

its so not him~the way he dresses,talks!now he has officially upgraded himself!HAAHAHA

mum said he looks like some korean star..just that he is a lil bit tanned than the stars!lol wth

& i still rmb our convo ytd

ARIE: you know i used to like taking picts of myself when i was FAT right!now that i have slimmed down, i don dare to zi lian already...instead i keep asking ppl if im fat!

ME: HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAH!!i still can imagine it in my mind!& now,i see alot of ppl like you asking that~AND your not fat already but u keep on saying & insisting your fat!i wld kill you & slap you if u ever say it again!KNS

ARIE: but its true whaat!you know all my clothes i wore last time,i don dare to even see them already~omg!i upgraded from THOSE KIND of clothes to NET/COTTON ON/ etc cuz they look better & can fit me!hahah

he is no longer the 16yr old boy i know!HE HAS GROWN UP!hahahaha

I seriously am still in shock cuz i still cnt believe he did it!

damn it,guys can slim down so much easily as compared to girls!KNS

ok i shall stop complaining & whinning and do it soooon :/

i still did not say it to you

i cant bring myself to say it

you kept asking me to,but i just cant

im sorry,i truely & really am.

it just cant come out from my mouth..i cnt even msg you & tell you either

all i know,karma will befall me for being like this to you

I.AM.VERY.SORRY.I.DISAPPOINTED.YOU

2010-05-08T21:47:00.004+08:00

the past week i have been pms-ing alot

moodswings like no tomorrow

one minute im happy...the next minute im sulking away...another minute im emo-ing

BADBADBAD

i keep on saying i need & have to stop this,but i just cant

its like "ITS EASY TO GO IN BUT ITS DIFFICULT TO COME OUT"

idk if that made sense to you...

anyway,3rd week of school is coming to an end

time flies so fast that assignments are gona be due very very sooon

i don like it at all

so rather than complaining & whinning about it,i'd rather try to do bit by bit now than cramping up & burning midnight oil to complete it,which i always & never fail to do for almost every assignments ever since i started school~its a bad & horrible & unacceptable habit which i seriously need to change.otherwise,its gona be difficult for me in the future :/

i bought coloured & normal contacts..was thinking of wearing it permanently, BUT NOW I DON THINK SO

cuz of what happened ytd,i think i shld just not wear it!

went to watch Ip Man2 with jack,boon,fern,jy,jh,des & shaun ytd

IT WAS NICE & GOOOOD :-)

damn,its been a long time since i last saw small eyes tan!!hahahaha missed him luhhhh~& HE NEVER CHANGED,AS USUAL~lol

today's KCC bonding day camp was a success(Y)

so,bcuz of the places where the clues wee hidden,our group came in second last

have u heard of what goes around,comes around??

bcuz regarding the forfeit,IT WAS ME WHO SUGGESTED IT!!LOL

KARMA SIA!BUT IT WAS NICE!HAHAHAA SO WHAT WAS THE FORFEIT?

COKE WITH EITHER GARLIC OR CHILLI(i did not suggest garlic/chilli but i suggested wasabi..ok its not helping either to explain my point)

so comparing smell & taste,i cnt stand smell

so i chose chilli with coke!cuz i cnt stand garlic smell compared to chilli..BUT IT WAS SILL BAD

once i smelt it,within 1second....1FREAKING SECOND & IT WAS ALL IT TOOK TO GET ME COUGHING SO BADLY :/ that was how powerful the chilli was

oh wells~i had fun,everyone had fun,thats all that mattered

after the break of camp,the committee peepsies went to BTP to have pizza hut for dinner!

& now,im gona prepare for the morn wake up call at 0545am for the weekly run at ECP which my mum isnt goin tmrw bcuz she wants to enjoy her sun morns of waking up late..enjoying a nice comfy breakfast at home

speaking of mum,its mothers day tmrw..im thinkin of taking my mum for high tea..but now i think not

2010-05-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

of all days but today, i tried to,BUT I FAILED

2010-05-02T15:53:00.002+08:00

i have just created another blog for me myself & i only

cuz i think some things are better off unsaid here

2010-05-01T21:36:00.001+08:00

I NEED SOMEONE TO SLAP ME IN ORDER TO WAKE ME UP FROM REALITY.....

omg it rhymes!!!hahahahahahaha im crazy

kwadevabye

2010-04-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

thank you (L) still feeels a lil uncomfy but its okkkk

sch at 1.30pm tmrw

nicee cuz its usually at 1pm

but damn lazy to gooooo & later some briefing by ziggy if im not wrong (awesome NOT)

kns

2010-04-29T01:00:00.003+08:00

ya you were right

im falling deeper & deeper inside

yes,im diggin my own grave

but on the other hand,im trying to be really brave

cuz no one can see my weaker side

the bucket of tears i have cried

im&ly

so,goodnight

2010-04-20T12:12:00.000+08:00

that very day

a slip of the tongue

& it changed my whole impression of you

im sorry but i have to admit that from now on,its gona be difficult to face you after what happened

2010-04-18T00:43:00.004+08:00

ytd was fun

BUT last night was even more AWESOME!!

the picture speaks clearly for itself

go fb & see more of them

MY FIRST NIGHT LIKE THAT!!hahahahaahaha

even more memorable~lol

i don think of a second time cuz im afraid as usual

2010-04-15T13:33:00.002+08:00

oh i din mention..

DATE NIGHT WAS AWESOME

you guys shld go watch it:D

2010-04-15T02:57:00.002+08:00

i cant be bothered now bcuz im sick & tired of this bullshit nonsensical irritating crap

2010-04-14T01:30:00.002+08:00

new year today was kinda peaceful!

as in it wasnt sucha big affair cuz of the passing of my grandaunt which is not even 3months at all

but one thing which din change for sure...I ATE LIKE A PIG..as in i was fed alot!

i must say grandparents know best! they love us & thats why they want us to eat alot!hahahahahha heck if it din make any sense,i still love them :D

2010-04-10T22:15:00.010+08:00

CONGRATS TO MY DEAREST BABE,JACKLYN LEEE, FOR GETTIN THROUGH STARDUST 2010 SEMI'S & INTO DA FINALS~whoohoo!!!!love youuuuuuuuu :D

7th APRIL: sent nina off at the airport as she had to go back for awhile! i shocked & surprised her with kel,ju,jess,mel & nats!hahha she loved the bear we got her from build-a-bear!we named it HAYLEY bcuz of her love for PARAMORE!!hahaha & the bears shoes,the same converse kind of shoes nina has with PARA & MORE for left & right respectively!!!(Y) STAY STRONG KK & TAKE CARE NANAPEE,WE'D BE HERE FOR YOU & WE LOVE YOU :D

8th APRIL: so many ppls' birthday & its also my parents wedding anniversary!!

so for their wedding anniversary present,i decided to cook korean food for dinner!!

MENU FOR THE NIGHT:

-DOKKBOKI (spicy rice cake)

-JAPCHAE (korean ver of stir fried noodles with veg)

-YACHAEJEON (fried veg pancake)

tadaaaaa!!!dinner is served....
the rice cake was lil bit of a disappointment cuz by the time my parents ate it,it was not soft & chewy but lil hard!BUT they still liked it cuz its something new & they havent tried it before!

verdict of the noodles was good except that i added alil extra sesame oil,makin it very oily BUT my parents liked it!it was my first time makin it so im proud of myself..NOT BAD!!hahahaha

pancake got the most/highest compliment cuz its nice & crispy!!my dad loves it like hell & wants me to make it more in future..my first time so im proud of myself once again!teehee

does the food look mouth watering to you?do you want to let your tastebuds try them??call now,CRYSSSYPOO'S LIL KITCHEN! 97****89

we provide parties/wedding/anniversary/birthday etc catering services!!so what ya waiting for??ITS JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY!!hahahahahahahahah

ok,im highee & i've completely lost my mind!& I BLAME ADVERT!!LOL but i do dream of openin a restaurant someday!!haha

oh yeahh,rmb i mentioned bdays just now??among the many bdays today,theres one special person's bday....KIM JONGHYUN~teeheeee
he dyed his hair back to his original hair colour(ilike)! & thats him above seeing where is everyone in last ep of HB cuz its so quiet..then he got a shocked bcuz everyone surprised him & sang a bday song while he's havin the lollipop in his mouth like a small kidddd!!hahahahahahha sho cute :D

i cnt rmb what else to blog except i 've been goin out almost everyday

& i love surprising ppl!!(Y)heeeheee

anyhooo,i cnt wait to see my lil kids tmrw :D

2010-04-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

sometimes its good that we live in different worlds..cuz u dono what im sayin (Y)

all the more it makes me wanna express it in that way...

내 마음이 아파요! 나 당신의보고싶어요

just felt like sayin it out~i dono why

ok whateva~PMS-ing like shit now

2010-04-03T21:54:00.007+08:00

i just feel that i shld have a STOP button in my brain to prevent me from havin random thoughts

its creepy when it actually happens just after a few days of thinkin of it

AND I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY IT WAS JUST REANDOM THOUGHTS AND SUDDENLY IT TURNED INTO SOME KIND OF REALITY

& NO ITS NOT DEJA VU...

it all happened within the same week..you guys can mayb laugh & all & say im thinkin too much..i don dare to even talk abt the 2nd thing IN DETAIL at all cuz its...@(%&*$@ OK I DONO HOW TO EXPLAIN ALRIGHT

SCENE ONE:

one fine day i suddenly thought of this person again whom i've not heard from since i graduated(2-3yrs bk) cuz i lost this person's contact..(why did this person come to my mind all of a sudden aft so long?or why this person in the first place?IDKY)

i was thinkin that this person shld go create a fb accnt since thats where everyone is in & the only way to get in touch & catch up with one another bcuz this person is more of the hardworkin kind & is less socially active online...

and suddenly,few days later within the same wk,this person just 'came back' into my life... via fb the same way i randomly imagined/thought previously

thinkin telepathy or its coincidental..think again

SCENE TWO:

another fine day i suddenly thought of what if THAT SUDDENLY HAPPENED...i shld be punished severely cuz of thinkin of this kind of bad stuff..

it cld be directly or indirectly...i was thinkin of both 'possibilities'...

and suddenly,few days later within the same week,it happened in the indirect way instead only...

for this second one,i cnt say even abit of it out..cuz it wont look & sound nice..

EXACT SAME PREDICTION HAPPENED 1YR BACK BUT IT WAS A DIFFERENT _______...THIS THG,I THINK & BLAME ITS MY FAULT THAT IT HAPPENED CUZ I PREDICTED IT EARLIER ON...ITS A SERIOUS THING THAT I THINK ME SAYIN SORRY HERE ISNT GONA HELP TURN BACK TIME TO UNDO THIS...

ever since, ESP, scene2 happened,im shutting off my random thoughts..cuz i don want it to happen to ANYONE ARD ME..

cuz when i hrd it happened,i just cried...

i really dono why i had these random thoughts of the same SCENE2 comin into my mind for the second time...cuz i swear,i nv expected it to happen at all..they just popped into my brain for no reason..scene2 feels & sound as though i want it to happen..BUT I DONT...

its like a big huge secret that i cant tell anyone...anyway no one knows except me!

think im confusin you...GOOD!

2010-04-01T00:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOOLS DAY!

din do much this yr for april fools(as in no prankin ppl like i used to last yr & earlier) cuz i was living in my own world..lazy to go out cuz of my drama marathon! iknow,im insane to finish

20EPISODES IN 12HOURS NON-STOP!! what can i do..ITS RUNS IN DA BLOOD

anyway,suddenly i rmb/feel i gotta blog this impt thing(TO ME)..but im lazy & tired (as usual) now so i shall blog it tmrw

cnt wait for breakfast at Raffles Marina Club

its been awhile since we went there together :D

2010-03-30T23:12:00.003+08:00

its been more than a week since i last blogged

lots of stuff happened! good & bad

i just wanna say this I SERIOUSLY NEED A GETWAY!!

the Malacca trip was not enough~i need somewhere far far away from sgp/mlsy...YOU GET MY HINT??lol

i know of some people who are overseas right now,probably enjoying their time & life away while im stucked here complaining, not happy about the fact that school is gona start in less than 3weeks...

i bet everyone is like me, whinning abt school starting soon

holidays are ending soooon!!

i swear,im gona enjoy the next 2 weeks plus of my holidays before i kiss them goodbye

-GO SHOPPING

-WATCH MOVIES

-WATCH DRAMAS

-EAT AS MUCH AS I WANT

-GROCERY SHOPPING TO COOK & BAKE

-GO NEORAEBANG/KBOX

i cnt think of anything else at the moment now

anyhoo,speakin of kbox, i went ksuite on mon with yy,kris,jeremy & lm!!IT WAS AWESOME TTMZOMG

i lost abit of my voice but heck~had loads of fun twittering,playing online games,singing,eating ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!hahahah

2010-03-20T22:07:00.006+08:00

(bday gal SHAR & her bro Jordan)~goddd i miss them both:/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED CUZ, SHAR!!!

miss ya heaps!!!!!!!

i wanna go visit u in perth/derby but i cnt!dang

hope you had an awesome bday partae there!!!

the next time i see you wld be when u come to sgp ard july period??!

cnt wait!!love ya :D

im blind now!ahahaha damn painful

still tearing non-stop though its not as bad as ytd!

between back & butt place(ahah i still forget the name) is still hurting only when i bend!

I WILL SURVIVE YO \m/!!hahaha

2010-03-19T23:27:00.005+08:00

i feel like a problematic child

always gettin myself injured/ into some kind of trouble or doing things wrongly

just recently regarding the place between your back & you butt(forgot whats it called), the x-ray was out and i went to see my chiropractictioner! 情况不乐观

today,as i was trying to tear open a letter, one of the sides of the letter just flew into my right eye!YES,if u don't know,im a very violent & impatient person!im not demure at all

sounds weird & impossible to have directly & correctly aimed into my eye but yeah!it just went in

and i started tearin like shit!and i mean DAMN BLOODY HELL LOT!! kleenex isnt able to absorb cuz its way too much tears/water

so i carry a towel instead

now its 23.41pm..i have been tearing since 5plus!ITS A NIGHTMARE I SWEAR!cuz its damn painful & troublesome!

iknow i should stop whinning but its just damn painful!i cnt see/blink properly!even when i close my eyes it hurts as well!

i feel theres a cut inside the flesh of my eyes cuz everytime i try to blink, the pain just gets worst & tears just come out!

& bcuz i cldnt see well,i was tryin to take the glass out when i din realise i placed the glass wrongly & it rolled over & went CRACKED!!glass pieces just splattered everywhere on the floor

results were released so early!they arent that good!GPA dropped like mad though i passed all!

today really feels like a shittylousyworst day

feel like cryin but i cnt cuz my eyes are already filled with tears every sec!AHAHAHA kk not funny

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sorree!just had to vent it out somewhere!

moodless ttm!

i cnt even read one page of my story book & not tear at all!i'd take yonk years to fin it if this continues

2010-03-19T02:52:00.003+08:00

im speechless now

my mind is in a swirl!too many things going on inside

whats done cnt be undone~

my death sentence coming my way

so not looking forward to it~who does?

my predictions of stuffs are just so accurate that im scared & freaking out if they wld be for later's situation!

2 blows for 2 consecutive days are MORE THAN enough to dampen my mood & make me feel lousy

perhaps,i need a change of environment!

M is the word i need now!GET IT?

2010-03-18T02:10:00.004+08:00

its funny how i can get cheered up so easily!lol (don't know if its a good or bad thing)

sometimes i act/say that i don care, but i actually am lying!

weeeeird woman i am! iknow

spamming on emo songs now!AHAHAHA

i need a better life

2010-03-14T23:37:00.010+08:00

before i blog abt what happened the past 2 days, i just wanna correct what i said earlier on in my last blog entry ending.....

"BELIEVE IN MIRACLES?

NAHHHH, THEY DON EXIST AT ALL"

people,fellow human earthling beings

once again today did i realise, MIRACLES DO EXIST!!!!!AHAHAHAH

13th March:

went for korean class but got drenched in the rain on the way

after korean class ended, tobu, charmaine, lynda, lynda's fren & i headed to E-Le Entertainment Awards Show 2010 @ Marina Bay floating platform

i swear...89% of the people who went there, went for the same reason....SHINee

it was pretty obvious cuz when they came out regardless on the redcarpet/screen/performance, EVERYONE JUST WENT BONKERS/HAYWIRE, STANDING ON THEIR CHAIRS INSTEAD!

so yeah!they were the 2nd last to perform (saving the best for last)

did not see them face to face or even close up!but i enjoyed the concert!

was msgin LiQi to inform/update her about her Xiao Gui!!hahaha poor liqi,cldnt make it due to work!

concert ended ard 11.30pm

saw some drunk ladies near the bars ard esplanade area~AHAHAHA believe it or not,my first time seeing such stuff (tv & reality,diff feeling)~cuz im a good girl you know~hahah wth

anyhooo, i reached home around 12plus! thank god my parents did not scold me~whooo :)

14th March:

got up ard 8plus & went for 'lesson'

finished ard 12plus & rushed to IMM & to meet charmaine, who woke up late!hahah

met charmaine's fren & went into the showcase like happy kids

IT WAS REALLY NEAR!I WAS SO HAPPY LIKE MAD!!i thought there would be a hell lot of people.

BUT who cares!little ppl the better, cuz i can see them clearer & better ~ i sound like a mean bitch!lol

though we were not so near to them,it was just awesome!i finally saw Jonghyun face to face! HE IS SO HANDSOME & CUTE & GOOD LOOKING & MUSCULAR~DAMN SKINNY OMG

I DON RMB BEING THIS HIGH WHEN I SAW 5566's SUN XIE ZHI FOR THE FIRST TIME~ROFL

so i went lepak-ing in the train on the green & purple line to & fro!ahahaha wanted to stay outside longer cuz i was so hapeeeeeee :D im mad iknow

so now i can say that miracles can happen! YOU JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE & HAVE FAITH~ahahah

i sound like some strong preacher~ erm u get what i mean ya

idk what im blabbering abt cuz im just too higheeee

1st & 2nd time of my chances of seeing them failed.

i thought the 3rd time was gona be the same...HOWEVER

3rd time,ITWASJUSTLIKEEATINGCOTTONCANDY....SWEEEEEEEEEEEET (L)

nite!i know im gona have many many sweet dreams~teeeeheeeeeheeee :D:D:D:D:D

2010-03-12T01:14:00.008+08:00

i went for my X-ray in the aftn

i was supposed to go 4-5months ago!!but bcuz of sch,i had no time to go!

how/when its started?? i fell down the stairs last yr after one of my S&W lessons! so my chiropractitioner asked me to go just to make sure everythings fine (which i did not go till now)

but recently,my back's hurting HELL LOT!ITS DAMN PAIN! when i run,it kinda hurts a little. now when i sit,walk or stand, it hurts here & there too!

oh well!see what the x-ray report says when i see my chiropractitioner next wk!

met up with jack & went to suntec to have bodyshop massive shopping spree!it was crazy as hell but we got through it

IT Fair was 1273012740912 times worst!it was madness,i swear!worst than last year!

thank god we got out alive in one piece

we wandered further & saw newurbanmale was having a sale tooo

SALE=MAD & CRAZY GIRLS=HAVIN LESSER $$$$

headed to orchard cuz jack wanted to go to etude hse & after that,we walked aimlessly & ended up back at ion,havin dinner at XING WANG CAFE!! cuz we were both hungry & our legs just cldnt carry us any longer...AHAH

the day did not end well!!

firstly,everything just did not go right!

misunderstandin or not..does not matter!

im at fault no matter what!

secondly,my plans/dreams have failed once again!

2nd time!!!damn bloody upset ttm

无缘

im gona go buy the next plane ticket to korea & perhaps go meet lyon/dingshen who are doin their intern there! they are damn lucky omg!envious ttm

i think i have whinned & complained enough for tonight

soree for pms-ing non stop to you guys

thanks for hearin my whines & me pms-ing like a bitch

LOVE YOU GUYS TRUCKALOADS (L)

believe in a miracles?

nahhhh,they dont exist at all

2010-03-11T01:35:00.000+08:00

i hate myself for being so indecisive!

so,in the end i chose to stay at home & laze around doing ntg instead of going for the camp chalet, WHICH UP TILL NOW,I STILL FEEL BAD NOT GOIN!

iknow,isuck!

ehh,actually, not really laze around cuz i feel today was really productive!haha

i managed to watch some of my recorded shows.

i managed to go for my run.

i managed to clean up PART of my room. my bedside table & desk are cleared!

i got one prob now.

MY CUPBOARDS ARE MY NEW ENEMIES! bcuz they are so messy that i get sick & tired of clearing & cleaning & rearranging them again & again & again!its really irritating

but to prevent my dad from nagging at me, i shall be a good girl to do it VERY SOOOON before he says it again & i wld be in big trouble!heeeheee

IM GLAD I GOT IT OFF MY CHEST!!IT FEELS SO GOOD NOW THOUGH IM SCARED!!

anyhow,from today onwards,im gona be a lil extraa beeeeezeeeee!

i know i told some of you about it. i have many dreams & aspirations(oh god i suddenly rmb my sec sch sch theme song!..MANY DREAMS,ONE ASPIRATIONS!AHAHAHAHA KK ENOUGH)

as i was saying,one of them is that....

I wanna be a script writer someday! i cld have had the chance to achieve that but bcuz the 2 courses in SP was damn bloody hottt & popular, that even the interview i went for was of no use. BUT IM HAPPY WITH WHERE I AM NOW! APR,NO REGRETS (L)

today, i just randomly went to winglin where i used to write my stories during my sec sch days. I cannot rmb my username so i cld not go to my page where my stories are at.

so i decided to revive that feeling once again! i kept sayin i wld do my stories since last yr, but bcuz of sch,i had to put it off!now,i have no excuses!

so now, i have 2 kinds of stories that i have in mind that i wanna write about.

- the first one's storyline and all was decided long back(last year to be precise).

- as for the second one's storyline, it was only the late last month that it suddenly came to my mind! it was damn random,i swear!lol

im starting on both now...but im givin priority to only one of it! GO GUESS WHICH ONE!haha

alright! im off to bed cuz my eyes are closing very very soon!

2010-03-10T23:48:00.015+08:00

what can i say??

i think im gona have extra good luck for the next few months??hahahaaha

something unexpected,extraordinary happened in the morning

i was standin up watchin tv,when out of the blue, a black minah bird flew into my hse(cuz the main door was opened) and it flew high up to the ceiling

SUDDENLY, I SAW BLACK STUFF FALLIN TOWARDS THE GROUND & I WAS THINKIN IT WAS ITS FEATHERS.........IT LANDED JUST 2CM AWAY FROM WHERE I WAS STANDING........

IT WAS POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!omg i freaked out but started laughin cuz it all happened so suddenly! damn dramatic

this uninvited guest below circled in red just pooooped everywhere in my hse!of all houses,it chose mine~nice one!he was not even scared of my dog!LAGI BEST!lol

it kept on goin towards these 6 windows but ended gettin 'rejected' cuz its a transparent window which you cant go through it at all!lol i don speak bird language so i din bother to tell the bird "ACCESS DENIED" when it kept goin through the windows!ahaah

it just kept flying around the hall area,above the ceiling POOOOOOOOOPING ONTO THE GROUND & ON THE WALLS TOOO!!

so i ran up to 2nd/3rd floor to close all the room doors so that it could not go into the rooms & cause more trouble.

and guess what?

by the time i got down,THE BIRD DISAPPEARED!!!!it was outside

its funny how it realised exit was through the same way it came in after 15mins~poor bird,must have lost 248015837 brain cells due to gettin hit/knocked on the head from the windows countless times

anyhoo,my maid cleaned up the mess while i told my dad the incident when he called. he thought i was joking & he kept laughing and saying "serious ah?" lol

it even pooped on the fan! nice aim

so yeah!if you happen to come my hse some time this week(which is impossible),you'd see these 2 stains still around

bcuz they are so high up on the wall! even the ladder in our hse isnt long enough to allow u to climb & clean the wall! will have to see how it goes!

hahaha my mum freaked out for awhile after hearin this incident!cuz she hates birds!! if it happened when she was ard, it'd be damn hilarious ttm!!AHAHAH ok im damn mean

& yeah, im still in a dilema abt the cca chalet thing which is at pasir ris~oh well see how

2010-03-09T00:15:00.003+08:00

this is for you 陈小眼 aka TAN JIAN YANG

PROVEEEEEE!!!

i think your eyes too small (never became bigger since the last time i saw you) so never saw!!LOL

alright!back to watching the oscars!feeels so good watchin tv on your phone!HAHAH

2010-03-04T01:48:00.006+08:00

(jonghyun ah!!PO GO SHIP PO YO)
im leavin home for melaka in few hrs time

have to be in sch before 8.45am!!!!!

i don really wanna go now

no mood & fweeeeeeel to go at all~ not lookin forward all of a sudden

feel that i shld have backed out with nina

oh well

i already paid freaking $133(though its parents $$,but still....)i better go cuz it wld be wasting their money

i don even know what we wld be doin for the next 3days 2 nights....

KK,I SHALL STOP WHINNING & GO SLEEP SOON!

oh & i got a confession....

ERM I MISS MY GUY....JONGHYUN!!

FASTER COME BACK TO SGP SOON!!teeeheeee anw,yr comin next wk,but still wanted to say it!haha im mad,iknow

& I WANNA GO KOREA LUH!!

so many ppl ard me are there enjoyin themselves in korea!!!argh not fair

oh btw,went to watch Dear John with nina & siti ytd!!not so bad i guesss :)

just wanna say something b4 i end.......

DEAR JOHN,YOUR SO DAMN BLOODY HOT & HANDSOME!!IM IN LOVE WITH YOU NOW!!TEEEHEEE K BYE

don forget to miss me peepsies!!hahahaha

2010-02-23T23:41:00.004+08:00

HANDED BMP TODAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im so damn bloody happy cuz SEM 2 IS OFFICIALLY OVER MANNX :D

after that went to meet tobu & lemo!

i totally forgot today was tue & that there was korean class cuz both of them went bk to the centre to get their cd from jay,which explains why we had to meet him there

had dinner at sakae sushi & headed to TOM & TOMS COFFEE!!its supposed to be the number 1 coffee outlet in korea!!hahaha

and the atmosphere was goooood

korean songs being played while we camwhored & koreans serving us!!wahahah tobu said it felt like she was back in korea!

too bad no hot guys to oogle at!all there were ladies & they were very preetaaee!this tells you....

I NEED TO GO KOREA SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!WANNA SEEE HANDSOME HOT & CUTE GUYS!!soreee,im a girl,cnt help it~teeeheeeee

my plan better go on smoothly tmrw otherwise,its gone be the 3rd time i failed!!kaaaarnasaiiii

lousy woman

OH, DRAMA MARATHONS! IMISSSEDYOU

- 海派甜心 (finished)

- 下一站,幸福 (1 last ep to go)

- 就想赖着你 (still on goin)

-Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge (still goin on)

the jap one is damn bloody hilarious omg!!i can reduce stomach fatttttttts~as if uh

and if you realized,NO KOREAN DRAMA AT ALLL!!hahaha surprising

yeah!i must go see whaaaaaats nice! i know GOD OF STUDY is a must watch!

shall see look hunt high low!oh i need to catch up on eng shows too!!isuck,iknow!i always watch on & off!not the whole series/episode and i don get the story in the end

2010-02-23T02:03:00.004+08:00

are u sincere abt what u say?

are u who i see u as?

cuz sometimes i cnt tell if your tellin the truth or their just plain white lies